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[[_I'VE MOVED TO XANGA!_]]

2007-10-24T16:36:00.000+08:00

I'VE MOVED TO XANGA!

p.s. click on the word "MOVED" to my xanga page... =)

did not know why my blogger cnt use leh...so move to xanga lors...but this blog will not be closed down...as a memorial bah... =x

[[_MAMA! I LOVE YOU! _]]

2007-10-16T16:49:00.000+08:00

things are going down slope for me recently...haiish...now den i realise, mama is important to me can...see mama being bullied hurts me ok...korkor too...he can becuz of mama dun care wad will happen to him, just wan help mama get the rights...
MAMA! I LOVE YOU! make sure nth happens to you k...muacks...

now at tr hse...haven change yet alright...dirty me... =x go home sure kaobei by mama de, cuz she dislike me go around in uniform...xia suey mas...haas...nvm nars...xi guan jiu hao... =/

feeling abit lose recently...haiish...dunno why...dunno how to lead on anymore...teach me can...where can i learn? when this life will stop?
WHY WHY WHY?!

[[_siao liao_]]

2007-10-01T15:26:00.000+08:00

i sot de...just came back from outside, or rather exam? once reach hoem haven even bathe, jiu online le...body full wit tat choco cream smell... *puke*

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SIOKHUI MARMIE!

went to lots of people de blog just now, keep tagging them, tag them saying i love them...haas...i dunno why suddenly hen sot, now you hen emo... =x i moodswing liao lars...rahhhh...

gonna bathe after this post, teh cream smell i really wanna puke liao...after bathe jiu go out study... =x i bet i confirm wont study de...say is study only, act like i can concentrate den say...blah blah...
siao eh says that later he is not meeting alvin they all, he is gonna stay at home and study...must believe tat he will study...but must take it the fact tat i cant see him until tmr morning in school le... =/

rahhh...dunno why now i sot sot de...feel like shouting...wahhh...i wanna go bathe le...really gonna puke le...bueah~~

[[_kbox wit RAINjie_]]

2007-09-30T20:32:00.000+08:00

its exam period now and i just went kbox wit RAINjie...omg...not gonna care about my study? dunno leh...can pass jiu pass lors...nth seems to get into my head when i study...hen xinku neh...

anyway, kbox wit jie just now is fun at first, den sudenly both emo...see her so sad i also sad... =( hope kor will treat her better...she's a zharbo afterall ars...will tends to be weaker de k...

and i feel bad about the kbox just now...she was like emo-ing...den suddenly i jump for joy cuz siaoeh msged me...opps...sorry sorry...

kbox-ing from 3 to 7 liddat...3 to 5 abit sot sot de; 5 to 6.30 start to emo le; 6.30 to 7 crying le... =( sobs sobs...others maybe i still can li siao abit to make them smile, but jie i jiu dunno wad to do le...afterall, she is emo for kor wad, den how to help kor wors? i also dunno...just hope its sunshine after the rain mars...
sunshine after RAIN!

[[_ILU_]]

2007-09-28T21:10:00.000+08:00

flung my papers can...today was chem & ss...& ytd was like, go library read up abit ss, cant get in...reach home read abit chem, cnt get in, den change to ss, cnt get in too...den went to nap awhile, wake up for chem again...cnt get in...den to ss again, cnt get in again...i was like, give up...

after ss paper is a small break, something like recess...read up for chem...suan le...i give up can...
during chem paper, flip to the first page, dunno...den flip to the next page, dunno...den i keep on flipping and flipping...suddenly it was like section B le...i stun, den quickly flip back to the first page and anyhow bomb ans lors....section B is not any better can...the ans is anyhow bomb de lors...give up on sec 4 express le...siaoeh, i can go NA pei you next yr le... =x

after paper went to siaoeh hse to look for him & alvin tgt wit joey...at his hse li siao here and there...
siao eh, you are a sweet guy...you treat stead hen good, just like wad the rest has said...i dun love him ok...like i've said, i love you k...i wont cry for him anymore...i promise...

had a little cold war wit him...sorry so much...after to his hse, liting pei me go home...at my home eat maggie blah blah...slack till 5 plus reaching 6 den leave home to pm mac...was damn late can...haas...but we still went to the playground underneath my block to play the swing first... =x left my hse estate at only 6... =x

reach pm, smoke arn...slack arn, den home le...ilovehim so much can... <33

[[_THEY ARE ALL MINE! except florence is serina's_]]

2007-09-27T20:15:00.000+08:00

FLORENCE IS SERINA's ONLY !
SIOKHUI IS MINE & serina's !
& SERINA IS MINE & siokhui's !
and its forever true <33

haas...today went to visit florence; tele visit...thou didnt get to visit her, but dunno why like have seen her already...really miss her k...haiish...cant get to meet her any of the days she is inside..sad lors...haiish...

back from visiting florence, went to library to find siaoeh and the rest...sorry joey, i tot xy has gone to look for you...sorry so much...& tat kuku tide...so damn li siao can...haas...but nvm lars...he is respectable... =)

after tat, bus home tgt wit winstone; liting & kelvin...all pei winstone to central near my hse...he nv pei me home as he say...but nvm lors...he must has his own time wit his frens...as long as not out to date wit others zharbo can le... =x

[[_my life is so full of drama?_]]

2007-09-24T15:25:00.000+08:00

school as normal today, with abit of hardworking-ness...i actually did my math hmk myself while most of them are chatting or wadsoeva lors...didnt know why i'm doing this...

recess went to find claire to take back my phone, den went down or my recess...haas...when i was there, they just nice intend to go smoke, so just nice smoke some mouth before going down... =x smoke before eat, wad a nice moment...

today he nv come school...didnt know why...gave him morning call, he finally wake up le, den in the end nv come schoolll...nvm lors...gave him morning call from 6.12 to 6.35...once i wake up le jiu call, call until he pick up le den i go chiong do my things...den in the end he nv come...and he did not tell me anything...msg him nv reply...do not know wad has happen to him...half way school something happen or wad i totally dunno lors...nvm bah...if he by tonight nv contact me i dunno wad i'll be doing lors? du lan? worried? dunno...sudenly mia liddat...haiish...

me now at xy hse...& bastard called me just now...ask me go down jp dunno do wad...dun care lars...dunno if wanna go down anot...sua lars...ltr go sher hse do hmk...at class keep going the xim to do hmk, now suddenly dun hav... =x

gonna leave already...tmr is mooncake festival, but think this yr not gonna to have any plan out to play...sian... =(

shall end here...my life is so full of drama...omg...just like wad RAINjie say?

[[_5th day wit my siaoeh le... =)_]]

2007-09-16T18:45:00.000+08:00

today is the 5th day wit my SIAOEH le...we are terrorist man...cuz we got tgt on the 11 september...911 terrorist attack...sian...everybody saw we are terrorist...haas...den good lors...dun provoke us...arbo terrorist go find you ars...rahhh`! =x

went for my cso today...si bei sian can...do until i wan faint le can...not feeling well lars...during cso keep call him, cuz he ask me call him mars...den he slping... 0.0 he good...
den after my cso i went to look for claire...slack her slack there...den ask claire help me call him, he go out liao... =.=

after 619, i jiu went to look for joey...so now i'm at joey hse lors...hen extra leh...they one family, den i extra... =/ going home soon... =x

~I MISS EVERYBODY~

[[_i gonna live my own way out_]]

2007-09-11T17:05:00.000+08:00

i'm just gonna live my own way out...wad the for i care so much? since nobody's gonna care anyway...just gonna live my life...
wad's the defination of life? you ask me? i would say is NOTHING`!
LIFE IS NOTHING`~

school as usual today...still tat sian...haiish...gonna cough till die soon...i sick le... =(
exams coming...i bo xim study lors...cant put myself into study now...haiish...

now at tr hse use comp...he siao de lors...air con on till so cold...siao siao...i hen cold lars...wahhh`! brrrr...

suddenly feel so blank...si bei extra lors...2 guys & me one gal here...extra`! wahhhh`!

he? yes? no?
can make it? cnt make it?
frens? can? no?
=x

[[_why dun they sometimes put themselves in others shoes & think_]]

2007-09-06T18:24:00.000+08:00

did not know why, just not feeling very happy today...dunno why...alot alot of things come up to my mind lors...mostly, or can say all is about realationship de...suddenly saw this phrase...hmms...quite meaningful bah... "男人通常以自己的观点来了解女人的需要。从不已女人的观点来了解女人的需要。" this may sound like i'm selfish, but isnt wad gals always think? isnt this wad most ppl think? only think of themselves...not say everytime only think of themselves, but why dun they sometimes put themselves in others shoes & think?

today is a very slack day for me lors...slacked the whole day...math lesson, just do & do only lors...after math go smoke...den go back school for rc meeting...after meeting go smoke again...asked farhanah pei me, den i walk her to pm there, den go back jwps tat side to look for liting...den after tat go pm eat, den slack throughout liao...claire; yvonne & amanda later came down to meet for awhile...meet to buy dada; pipi & boyboy food only...
slack awhile, den claire& amanda go home first, leaving me; yvonne & liting...awhile ltr, amanda came down, to find meet her stead, den liting jiu go home to put her hamster food...

den, jiu leave me & yvonne le...too sian le, so yvonne jiu asked to go 619 see ppl play bb... =x
on the way there, kena hold back by joey...she siao de...shout here shout there...sot`~ =/
reach 619, played dunno who de psp audition... =x i rmbr this name; BABIEdaughter, and you are the BABIEs0n...play awhile, i jiu go home le...sorry yvonne tat i pang seh you...sorry sorry...

walked pass pm, kena di siao again... =x

*went to ur blog again...rmbr this song? its in one of ur post...*

song title: 他不爱我

artist: 莫文蔚

他不爱我
牵手的时候太冷清
拥抱的时候不够靠近

他不爱我
说话的时候不认真
沉默的时候又太用心

我知道他不爱我
他的眼神说出他的心
我看透了他的心
还有别人逗留的背影
他的回忆清除得不够乾净

我看到了他的心
演的全是他和她的电影
他不爱我
尽管如此
他还是赢走了我的心

我看透了他的心
还有别人逗留的背影
他的回忆清除得不够乾净

我看到了他的心
演的全是他和她的电影
他不爱我
尽管如此
他还是赢走了我的心

[[_if we are still tgt, it will be 5 more days to our one month_]]

2007-09-05T19:57:00.000+08:00

if we are still tgt, it will be 5 more days to our one month...no more one month again...nvm nars..."so wad if i like her? tgt not happy might as well brk..." learnt this from other ppl relationship...yes...& its true...

went for my cso duty today...first time chiong 10 to 6...
tis morning go there already not feeling well le...having been coughing until very jia lat recently...everytime i cough whole mind jiu seh...plus everytime when i walk into the libraray, i sure seh de lors...dunno why...just feel hen seh...maybe cuz too many books...i hate books...haas...
so today when i do my cso i do until really almost peng san nors...wahhh...still how must how many times? still must peng san how many times? haas...

during lunch break from cso, suppose wan go find claire smoke de, but when i call her, she still slping... =.=
so i called joey lors...she told me to go to tr hse, cuz she dun wan come out...reach there i den know tat she having a very jia lat flu...one flu one cough...haas...
before reaching tr hse, claire called...she suddenly wake up wors...blah blah...haas...so in the end i promise to go find claire after i go find joey they all bah...

reach tr hse there, didnt go inside tr hse, stay outside smoke first... =x sms joey to tell her i reach le, in the end she came out wit alvin; kelvin & zhencong...they are going down to 651 kopitiam to eat...but they smoke first before going down...
smoke finish le i went down wit them, to go & look for claire...so tat means i did not step into tr hse... =/

met claire le, went up to amanda stead hse...& amanda bought 2 kittens out...pipi & dada...so the cute can...haas...slack at amanda stead hse awhile, jiu go back for my cso le...

when i doing my cso, suddenly see alot of familar faces wors...haas...good good...got ppl pei wo... =x

& after my cso, i went to look for claire again, for her bee hoon kuey she cook...is nice de ok...thx claire & claire mother... =)

*this time my turn to tell you tis...i just read finish a book... "现在很想爱你" the gal did not dare to confess her love& the guy only realise her love for the gal when summer break starts...in the end, the gal took up the courage, to tell the guy she love him...can i tell you i love you too?*

[[_i'm just gonna live my own way out_]]

2007-09-04T20:34:00.000+08:00

i'm just gonna live my own way out...wad's the use of love? love big meh? stead liao, fall in love liao, den break, den heart pain...fun meh? no k...i dislike this feeling so damn much k...i dun like love...wahhhh`! i dun need any love...

today is not a very fun day for me...went for chem lesson today...after chem lesson jiu go smoke, i smoke finish le jiu wait for liyana to finsh talking wit kelvin...meanwhile tr pei wo talk talk...lucky got someone pei me ars, if not sure sian dao bao ars...

after liyana finish talking wit him, i went to find anita, den we tgt went to jp...before reaching there, WE SAW A BANGALA FALL DOWN...haas...long long story...interested ask me...

after jp, go down pm find xy...after tata suppose wan go sher hse find her, but in the end kelvin and tr came down to pm...after pm went to 619 play bb, but hal;f way i went to find korkor le...he is drving me & mama tgt wit his gf to eat...after eat le we jiu came back le...

"pua cb...u unlock the comp i use wad? fuck him lars hors...den now i use comp update blog i wrong...pua cb lars...everythign my fault...sua...dun think u have change i thing...dunno why mama keep say u have changed...suan la hors...brother dua sai le mars..."

[[_I'M GONNA PLAY FOR ALL I WAN_]]

2007-09-02T20:28:00.000+08:00

things has turned sour, den wad the for i still care? so wad if i slowly fall for you le? you slowly leave me le...do you ever rmbr when is the last time YOU sms me first, before i sms you? do you every rmbr when is the last time we chatted on phone? do you ever rmbr when is the last time we talked?

previously you told me cuz of ur N level, so no contact, wan study? you sure you study mars? after work still can go out, go another side of s'pore from jurong...good lars...i think i should understand ur meaing from all these actions le bah...i wont so bhb de...but just hope so we are still frens...
& i promise i wont shed another tear for you, for anymore love...not gonna waste my precious tears for anything...
i'm just gonna play...play for all i wan, play for all i care...

wad's the use of going into a realtionship? go into relationship? den being hurt? den cry? den break? den go into another relationship? den being hurt? den cry? den break? den go into another one? like a circle?
wad for? might as well just play...at least you wont get hurt when you did not even put any heart into it...make sense right?

from now on, i, LEE XINHUE, gonna have fun everyday...do wadeva i like...not gonna be controlled by anyone...no one`~

went for my cso today...almost peng san lors...wahhh...sick liao...den throat hen pain, maybe cuz too much chocolate ytd? or cried too much ytd night before i slp? or cuz of shouted at my mum today?

after my cso, went to find claire to smoke...my SM mars... =x so find her only got smoke...haas...no lars...sian mars...so find her out to pei me lors...
in the end not only got the 2 of us, still got phoebe, yvonne, amanda, anita lot lot...

tehe went to art park to play basketball...didnt wanted to play...claire wanted go there play bb, nic tee, long long, roy jio me there...aiya`~ complicated yet quite simple also...blah blah...
& JUNWEI GOT STEAD DUN WAN FREN`! =x

at art park slack here slack there...smoke here smoke there...drink here drink there...talk here talk there, very fast de, its arn 6 plus to 7 le...
supoose wanted to go pm sit sit wit claire, anita, yvonne, phoebe & amanda awhile before going home wit anita, we stay kinda near mars...in the end we sat at 619 basketball court see ppl play bb...they play until hen fierce...haas...

this is wad phobe draw on the 619 basketball court floor`~
nice`~

& we left 619 for pm to buy drinks...they bought their own refreshment, & i went to SAM machine to check something out...

after tat, we all went home le...walked wit anita...sort of crapped all the way... =p

i was late for probation...suppose to reach home at 8 de, but i reach at arn 8.10 liddat...but lucky when i call po, her mailbox full...phew...she wouldnt know i was late for today...haas...

& GOOD LUCK FOR N LEVEL STUDETS WHO ARE HAVING THEIR N LEVEL PAPER TMR... =)

[[_i really need you, but i guess its impossible for you to come back_]]

2007-08-31T21:00:00.001+08:00

9 more days to our one month, but think back...in this one month wad has we done? nth...more den 3/4 of it we has not contacted, we has not met each other...this can be said tat tis one month is not we stead de one month, is we severe ties de one month bah...
today at school saw her, asked her if she got my keychain not, she just replied me a yes...wad's more? nth more...

haiish...between us tats nth more to say le izzit? i wonder if she rmbr, when is the last time she ever contact me...just an sms, does it cost a bomb? last time, even if her prepaid low, or she has no phone, she will by all means go borrow or wadsoeva to contact me...now? nv borrow phone to sms me nvm...when she is at home? not even a phone call...its has been so damn fucking long since we chatted on phone le k...i wonder if she knows how i feel not?
guess she dunno bah, cuz she dun even bother to contact me...N level so cnt contact? even a sms also cnt?

today went down to arena tgt wit liting; eddie; zhencong; tairong; kelvin...the guys bike back, so me & liting took bus back...at the bus stop, chatted wit liting...asked her about winstone during N level is like wad de? very little contact, but still got contact...me & her? i nv sms her she wont sms me de...
these few days i nv sms her, see if she will sms me not...no`~ not a single one...maybe cuz of her N level? i dunno...shall wait for her N level to end? think by tat time break le bah...

i really see no hope in this relationship anymore le lors...for those who knows about us ALL say, why before stead & after stead so diff de...exactly`! why?

she will nv know how hurt i am...just went to her blog before i came to post...i live up to my name..."ai ku gui (cry baby)"...i cired...seeing all those post about me, so sweet can...thinking about us now, so damn far can...sometimes i wonder, izzit a silent break from her?
feel like sms-ing her & ask her if she wanna a break...but wad if the ans is no, & i asked her this, will she think tat i dun trust her enough, from no intention to break, to we break...i really dun wish a break...

saw ricky today...he told me about he & her gf going more den 2 months le...see wenbin still loving her after so long...see liting;winstone & joey;alvin so long le...see one by one example of their relationship lasting, how about mine?
saw chio bu today too, she di siao suan me about my relationship all cnt last...act like i do not wan it to last de...all 4 break wit me de k...dun care is i like them or dun like them, is they break wit me de lors...think i like it meh? who wont wan their relationship to last?

i keep smoking, to stop my tears...stupid idea right...
she dun like me to smoke...no no...is she dun wanna me to smoke...but i dun wanna cry...

aiya`~ i complain here also no use, she wont come up to my blog de...just type out to relieve myself abit lors...
but act like got relieve dao liddat...still hen sad, still hen xiang cry...

i really forget about florence le...serina told me something good about florence, but i'm not feeling happy or wadsoeva...all i can tot of de is her...she really created alot of memories for me...i admit, all did created memories for me, but hers is the sweetest, i can confirm...but tats all past...i blamed myself for accepting her so late...i blame myself for accepting her only when her heart starts to die...i got the wrong timing...but we cant turn back time, den wad more can i do? who is the angel out there to help me?

i dare to say tat i become more & more weaker le...i cried more & more often, more & more easily...
wad's the for of saying all these? nobody cares...nobody bother if i'm crying anot...suan le...maybe i'm too strong to them le...
ehhz...no lors...not at all...is nobody even give a damn to me...

i'm at a lost again...life is really too difficult for me...can i just leave? as in, leave this world? i, LEE XINHUE, can take it no more...

& once again, i did the worng things`~

*i really need you, but i guess its impossible for you to come back...*

[[_everything is going down slope for me_]]

2007-08-30T20:16:00.000+08:00

so fucking lost...everything is going down slope for me...
1. frenship` everything i'm in fault lars hors...act like you all know wad i really wanna say...you all are not me, you all wont know wad i'm thinking or wadsoeva...& u all dun even bother to wanna know, jiu kpkb...sua lars hors...
2. family` UNCLE! YOU HOW OLD LIAO STILL WANNA PLAY YOUNGSTERS THINGS! PLS LARS HORS! YOU WAN MY FAMILY DIE? NOT SO EASY! I DARE TO SAY TAT MY FAMILY DE CHILDREN HAS ALL GROWN UP, WE WONT DIE! WATCH OUT!
3. relationship` just things has changed...wad's more to say? wad to say?
4. studies` wu laoshi is right, my studies has really dropped le...its time for me to jia you?

*having mixed feelings...this is the time i need you most, but you werent here`~*

[[_jec_]]

2007-08-25T19:46:00.000+08:00

went to meet feli & serina at libary today for some study...i only did my english file and read a lil of the english hmk...went for awhile only, & i left for jec to meet joey they all supposingly...

reached jec at arn 3.30 liddat...joey they all hasen leave jp when i reach jec...suan le...so i played my kuku phone while waiting for them...when they reach, we jiu pei siokhui they all go make their class de class tee, but they did not manage to do it, cuz price is not acceptable to them...
after tat we jiu go out smoke, den jiu go eat long john...they ate, but i did not, cuz i had my lunch le...

after eat, jiu smoke again, den jiu ask sher they all pei me go toilet...
sher told me at eugene was at jec too, so teh first thing tat came into my mind is to take cig from him...haas...when we was at the toilet, eugene jiu reach le...he came to meet us... =x guess wad, when i went out, saw bastard zhizhong too lors...omg...rahhh`!

li siao awhile, we jiu go up to the second floor le...(we did not went up tgt wit bastard they all =/ )

we talk talk arn at the secong, in the end, we went inside the neoprint shop, neoprint machine zi lian...i mean all girls went in to zi lian, siokhui is the photographer, cuz she dun take pic de...ruwen keep di siao siao lors...fuck him...

after zi lian, they all decide to take neos... =) so take lors...siokhui also take...hees, but she ran away half way...den after take finish, alot ppl face black black... =( dun really know the reason why...haiish...think is sh not happy tat we force her take neos bah...

after neos, smoke...blah blah...everybody face black black de... =(

THE NEOS

& afters moke, me, sh & xy jiu went off first...they i dunno why they go off first lars, me is i got probation, puls i wanna watch campus...hees... =p

*IT HAS BEEN SO MANY DAYS SINCE WE CONTACT EACH OTHER...SADDEN...I MISS HER SO MUCH CAN...WAD HAS HAPPEN, WHY HAS WE BECOME LIDDAT?*

[[_i'm a wheat grass & green tea gal_]]

2007-08-21T11:26:00.000+08:00

21 august is finally here...me, still in school praying for you...we cant attend ur court... =( but we will all pray for you...we all have prepared some things for you, we want you out to recieve it...
~ALL THE BEST~

i now in school, geography lesson...i geography fail lars...dunno a thing teacher is talking about...really, dunno a thing...haas...found out one thing, school comp lab de keyboard hen hao type...blah bah...

today in school nth much happen during lesson time, just tat during recess kinda alot of things happen... =x
serina helped me buy noodle...den sh dun wanna eat, in the end, xy ask serina dun care her, just go buy water for her...so serina came back wit 2 bottle of wheat grass, one for me& her, one for sh...
sh keep dun wanna drink, keep pushing to us, in the end the bottle topple & good luck to me and serina...we kena the drink... =/
i kena till more jia lat lors... =( so i went toilet to clean myself up lors...saw farhanah inside...blah`! we began our childish kids war... =p splash water; di siao hair...haas...
(saw her inside too...*smiles* )

came out, continue my mee...bell ring le, went to help joey collect her nametag...just take finish, andrea came to ask me help her finish her green tea...so drink lors...i gulp everything down...after first mouth, on the second mouth, andrea they all li siao, den i pua`! evrything slash out...rahhh rahhh`~

so for today i'm a wheat grass & green tea gal... =x

& while on the way back to class from teh parade square to classroom, her class si beside my class...omg...pai seh dao yao si...dun dare to turn my head... =/

& yes…I’m crying…I’m still the cry baby`~

2007-08-17T20:16:00.000+08:00

Days drewing nearer & nearer…still wondering if you can come out not…haiish…worried…
~WE ALL REALLY MISS YOU ALOT ALOT~

Went to school as usual today…forgot to take pocket money from daddy lors…omg…no money, cnt return money…sorry sorry…
& schooled as usual today too, nth much…maybe some things did happen, but no mood to care about it…

after school, went out to smoke wit them as usual…smoke no good lars…(dunno wad the fuck I’m saying…blah blah…) smoke le, jiu go back into school wit joey, sher & Manfred…I going for Chinese competition, joey got it duty think so, the rest I dunno le…think sher go back for netball? & Manfred go back to pei joey? Really dunno…

went for Chinese compo competition at 1.30…saw nic tee, & I started beated him…haas…he very good, stand there let me beat for all I wan…I MISS HIM TOO`! ONE MONTH NO SEE LE`! AWWWW`~
& off I went for Chinese compo competition…wrote a ques on “he/she finally smiled/laugh”…wrote le 4 page, & I’m the second last to leave… =p the other ques is “my idol”…if I write my idol, I’ll sure write until slp de…tat ques is so damn sian can…

joey & Manfred waited for my competition to end, den I pei them go block smoke, den pei joey go back change, den go down pm find xy & sh…doro later came down…

I did the worng things again…I do not know wad to do, so go siao…& I’m wrong again…I shouldn’t have gone siao…I dunno lars…
& yes…I’m crying…I’m still the cry baby`~

[[_are things still the same? No…_]]

2007-08-16T21:12:00.000+08:00

how many days left? 5 days? Haiish…
~WHERE ARE YOU~

schooled`~
dismissal bell went off`~
went to find chong chong they all, & meet probation officer`~
&ME & JUNWEI IS SHARING THE SAME PROBATION OFFICER…WHY HIM? AWWWW`~

the “group discussion” wit the probation officer & the rest is so damn fucking lame & boring…slp liao lars`!

after discussion I jiu go down pm find xy & joey le…sh came down later…played a lot of lame games…
& hen soon de, jiu went home le…

didn’t do much today…wad a boring day… =/

*are things still the same? No…*

[[_I’m partly at fault for causing things changed…sorry…_]]

2007-08-15T22:15:00.000+08:00

saw chio bu today, & we somehow did chatted on you…how are you?
~MISSES~

schooled as usual, like wad I did for the other days…same thing as usual, nth much happen in school…haiish…my school life is going boring…sian…

after sch, went to smoke wit the rest as usual? Did i or did i not? Forgot le…only rmbr I pei-ed xy go home change, den go down pm mac study…I jio her study de hors…blah blah…in the end I’m the one not studying, not in a mood…haiish…
*things changed?*
I smoked again…cuz not happy I smoked again…stupid enough right…

Awhile, jiu saw sebas, & I asked him where ur mummy, he said outside, me & xy jiu run out go find chio bu le…I so long nv see her le ok…miss her`~ same time, doro came…thx for coming down… =) but I did not pei her…I’m sorry…
*I’m partly at fault for causing things changed…sorry…*

I chatted wit chio bu on alot alot of things…not becuz of no time, I wouldn’t have left ok…
So I went in mac for awhile, chatted wit the rest awhile, jiu pack bag go home le…

*I’m always at fault…sorry…dun need to tell me tat I’m in fault, I can see for myself…sorry sorry…*

[[_has lost my ez link card_]]

2007-08-14T20:15:00.000+08:00

today is not my day...izzit ur day? heard from serina saying something like ur chance of continuing inside is high...izzit true? still hope you will come out...ur wish has come true...we really became more & more good girls le...we got guai guai...haiish...
~HOPING YOU OUT~

after school, go wit the same usual grp go smoke..i didnt smoke...not gonna smoke le...for the time being i guess...
today ever since recess time jiu abit emo le...try not to emo, as in try not to show out the emo-ness...but too bad...after recess back to class is totally emo le...haiish...all becuz of her? i dunno...

today at class cried abit bah...becuz of her? i dunno...
talked to joey during the last period, math...actually is complain bah...complain tat things are changing...we arent like before...joey still ask me, "why before stead & after stead so different ars?" haas...silly qns...act like i will know lidadt...blah blah...if i know things wont be so sad le, as in for me lars...her? i dunno...

at arn 2.30 liddat, bidded farewell, and off i went to mcys le...consider all alone bah...saw zishan at the mrt station, chatted wit her until je, where she alight...& after tat, is me all alone le...I HATE LONLINESS SO MUCH CAN`!

reach mcys at arn 3.40 liddat, where by i only have to reach at 4...& i left mcys at arn 4.20 liddat...fast...
left mcys, went to take bus, suppose back to novena, den take train back, but saw 7-11...hen thirsty, so alighted half way to buy drinks...i whole day nv drink any water lors...after buy finsh drinks, went to wait for bus...cuz all alone mars, den still early, so intend to take 166 back to clementi, den take 99 home...

bus come le, happy happy board the bus, but ghost know i lost my ez link card ars...nabeis...alighted at the next stop, cuz cant board mars, no money...suppose tot of go back just now tat station & look for my ez link card de, but is far de lors...pua byebye...
sit down by the sit & find my card, really cnt find lors...sian...see my wallet...is even a pathetic 10 cents also dun have lors...haiish...nv been so pathetic before...
so turn arn & wanting to borrow 55 cents to take back to clementi...den at celmenti den see how bah...the uncle hen good, no change, so gave me $1... =)

i almost stupid stupid go drop the $1 coin for just one trip lors, lucky last minute i go nearby de old chang kee & change 50 cents 50 cents... =)
thx da girl girl for wanting to come down novena pass me $$, but dun wanna bother you...sorry...bukit batok to novena not near, so didnt wanted to waste ur time...thx anyway...

166 finally came...dropped 50 cents in, the uncle didnt say anything, just let me in...so good...haas...went to the upper deck, still got chinese oldies to listen somemore...haas...is music play...dunno is i thinking too much or really got play...first time on bus hear music play...haas...
on bus tot of alot alot things...& THE JOURNEY IS DAMN FUCKING LONG LORS...slept halfway through the journey... =/

1 hour past, den i reach clementi...haiish...tired...
alighted the bus, & off for 99...i dropped 50 cents in again, & the uncle let me in again... =) bus 99 de journey to me still ok, take before alot of times le...its consider long, but not as long as from novena to clementi... O.o
nv slp during the bus 99 hourney, just stun throughout...haas...alone mars, nth better to do...haiish...

7 plus liddat, reach home le...called bastard, cuz he wanted me to call him...in the end just to chat only...sian...at arn 7.30 liddat, hanged...cuz i insist tat i wanna call my po... =x
after call po went to eat, after eat bathe, den jiu came to use comp le...nobody at home now...papa went for his drink le, den korkor; RAINjie & mama went out to buy my phone le...haas...happy...wonder wad model they will buy.. =)

& SHE HAS MSGED ME...loves`~ <3

[[_& i miss you alot alot..._]]

2007-08-13T23:52:00.000+08:00

how many days left? the mssing you feelings seems liek it has been so damn long le...
~MISSES~

nth much happen in school today...
after school go smoke as usual, den to interchange pei joey go buy mc...cuz she's not going for band mars...
took 157 there...

the fucking bus driver si eh gei gao lors...we are in our school uniform, & we pay childrens fare got wrong ars...pua cb...me & xy manage to pass wit children fare cuz we did scan my card, & it shows tat my card no $$ le...but joey they all no card, den suey lors...tat uncle hen cb lars...
we not happy so after we got to our seat, we blast techno, vandalise his bus blah blah blha...we are just buey song can...

reach le, sher go find song wee, den we go in register all these first lors, sher & song wee come later...
today our mouth hen itchy also, keep buying things & eat...blah blah...

after buying mc, go back jurong, den jiu go joey hse, watch final destination 3, which xy borrowed fron andrea i think...
tat show gan er xin lors...burn alive; head kena squash; head kena knife chop off & alot...omg...

i returned home fron joey hse at arn 7 plus closing 8 liddat...& i reach home at 8.30 liddat only lors...sad...late again...

*haiish...& i miss you alot alot...*

[[_i love rainy days?_]]

2007-08-12T20:10:00.000+08:00

days to your release is grewing near...heart thumping faster & faster...wondering wad sentence you will get...hope is a sentence good for you bah.. =)
~WE MISS YOU DAMN FUCKING LOT LOT~

raining so heavily now...sian....& i'm shivering cold...brrr...

so long nv slp so late le...ytd on phone wit "da girl girl" until 3 liddat...after hang up the phone, pack my things abit, jiu smoke...after smoke, dun care did i on air con anot, i just "PAH`!" doze off...haas...i just lie flat on my bed & SLEEP`! suppose i must hug onto something den i can slp de, but ytd, i just lie flat & slp...haas...yes...i got hug, i hug my bed...haas...

today woke up at arn 3 plus...when i woke up i'm hugging my pooh bear lors, i dunno when i took it & hug de...haas...stupid me...
woke up, check my phone, rpely soem of the msg, den went to wash up le...after wash up, jiu eat abit...i damn stupid lors...know tat once i wake up cant eat anything de, & yet i went to eat...shitty me...lucky eat abit only...

i eat & watch the NDP`07 at the same time...if i'm not wrg, i saw the BB part, & i saw our school de ALVIN CHONG...omg... =x
i did not see the others who participated, i only saw ALVIN CHONG...BUANG ARS`!

after eat, jiu go bathe & went down to pm meet xy they all le...on the way there, i smoke...knn...i wan die le lars...all thx to the food i ate just now, when i reach pm mac, the first thing i do after i put down my bag, i went to the toilet & vomit...rahhh`!

at pm mac, did abit of my hmk, & was kena di siao all the time...they wont feel sian de lors...dis iao so long le still di siao...ESPECIALLY MY GOOD TWINNIE` XINYU`! you good...zuo twinnie yao zuo dao zhe yang...
haas...she went to call her come down to bring umbrella to me, to send me home...still tell her i got stomach ache...rahhh`!
but in the end i go home myself wit her umbrella... =)
& she went home wit only her jacket de cap...sian... =(

I LOVE RAINY DAYS?

[[_is she the one?_]]

2007-08-11T20:33:00.000+08:00

another day had past...how's you inside le? dun think things will be fine for you inside...but just hope that you will be as healthy as before...wadeva more, health comes first... =)
still thinking for 21...all the best...*pray hard*
~ALL THE BEST FOR YOU~

its a damn boring day today...damn early jiu wake up le, 8 plus jiu wake up le...not like me huh...after wash up & lie on my bed do nth suppose...den see my phone, 10 le...fatser wake up go wtch campus superstar, cuz miss teh one on monday...all sing fast fast de songs...wahhh`! fast fast de song dun suit most of them lors...sian...in the end joanna & dunno who out, forgot le...plus not interested if he's out or not anyway... =p

after campus, jiu use comp awhile, forgot surf wad le...think is anyhow go see ppl de blog & chat in msn bah...
arn 12.20 liddat, i leave home tgt wit RAINjie to go & had our lunch...had chicken rice at 907...one plate of chicken rice cost $2 only, RAINjie stun...why so cheap? haas...teh chicken rice is nice, has been eating it sicne young... =)
RAINjie ordered a home made lemon tea, & i ordered wadeva...after the rice, i "bite" on the WADEVAcan...i "bite" the lid open, & there's 2 uncle beside me stun...

"girl, how u open it de ars? bite open ars?"
"erm...yeah..."
"wahhh`~ so 'pro' ars? "
"huh? erm...orh ok...thx thx..."

si bei malu lars...me & RAINjie quickly leave ars...
we 2 mouth still itchy mars, so intend to go central to buy some finger food & eat...today i got $$ k...haas...
reach central le, i suggest go flea market awhile...didnt know there got a bookstore lors...blah blah...kuku me...so went to bookstore first den go flea market...
we spend damn fucking lots of time at the flea market & bookstore lors...at flea market, walk walk see see...especially at the jigsaw puzzle...spend lots of time over there, & made alot of jokes within ourselves too...hahas...

after flea market, went to the bread shop...at the first bakery, RAINjie bought a waffle, den at the 2nd bakery, RAINjie bought 3 durian puff, & me? i baby...go buy the small donuts...those in the small ball de donuts...haas...
after the bakery, went to buy bubble tea jiu go home le...had a nice chat wit her... =)

reach home, check time, & its 2.20 le...WE SPEND 2 HOURS FOR THE LUNCH...haas...& i'm meeting xy; joey & sher 2.30 at pm...haas...reach home, chiong abit of things, den jiu go out le... =x

reach pm, do hmk...& talk cock abit...at arn 6 liddat, manfred send sher home, xy go my hse continue do hmk, doro waiting for us under my blk...cuz sher told us tat the mac ppl say at arn 6 liddat, they dunno have wad shit on lars, & say we can return after 8... =.= my curfew time is 8... so xy go my home do hmk lors...

doro reach my blk le, but we just leave pm... =p
doro & xy slack & do hmk at my hse awhile...arn 8 liddat, i think so lars, jiu leave le...doro going to meet amelia, i think so, den xy dunno how to go out of my estate, so needa leave wit doro, need her to bring her out...haas...

& IS SHE THE ONE FOR ME? HOPE SO SHE IS? DUN WISH FOR ANOTHER HEARTBREAKING SCENE`~

[[_she's the one bah?_]]

2007-08-10T21:03:00.000+08:00

hope to do things again wit you...missing the days tgt wit you...
~WE ALL MISS MISS YOU~

went to serina de hse to meet xy & serina first...not long after, sh came...keep kena di siao...shitty them...wad zuo sisters yao zuo dao zhe yang? i very good de ok...haas... =D

dunn at wad time, leave for jec to meet doro le...GOING TO WATCH JAY CHOU DE SECRET...HE ROX CAN... =)
had some jokes all along...dun care is in the public anot, dun care at bus stop, or BUS, or jec, or on the way to imm, or wadeva shit lars, keep kena di siao... =.=

btw, the movie is so nice can...love it so damn much...gonna watch it again...i watch tat movie watch buey sian de...haas...
after movie, jiu pei doro go imm buy his papa de presey le...on the way there they di siao until so malu can...keep far far away from them ars...throw face... =x
after presey, jiu take shuttle bus back to boon lay...ps ba0beiix again...she's going to je, and we are returning to bl, so had to ps...sorry ba0beiix...

on the shuttle bus, got a couple dunno wad they doing ars...kum pua imitate lors...pls...puplic`! blah blah...but cnt blame...tat bastard also liddat de...dun care public or wad, also hen imitate wit his stead de... =/
reach bl, bid farewell to xy; doro & sh, & i walk home...ez link card pok liao, so not gonna take bus...

GUESS I'M THINKING TOO MUCH...SHE'S THE ONE BAH...?

[[_if the advices is a good one, it brings you no harm..._]]

2007-08-09T21:17:00.000+08:00

today is national day...mine is fun...how's yours? dun think it will be a fun one bah...nvm...when you're out, will let you have a fun time...promise...to make up for ur time inside... =)
~YOU WILL NV BE FORGETTEN~

today's national day...went to kbox tgt wit sh; xy; serina & serina's sister plus frens...
had fun`~ sing k sing till siao lors...shout here shout there, sing this sing that...haas...not gonna update much on kbox...too long to post... =p

half way through, went down to CJ, ex workplace...saw huishan they all...so high can...misses them alot alot too...suddenly think back the time whne i work there, thou not long, but the memory is there...yet they still rmbr me...touched...go down awhile, jiu go outside carrefour find ppl buy cig le...i tried buying myself, but failed... =(
& found a guy help me buy cig...xy says he's shuai...to me, ok lars...got help me buy can le... =x

after buy finish, jiu go outside smoke,,,sh came down to join us...& after smoke, we jiu go up back to kbox le...they keep smack my neh neh... =/ cuz i smack theirs first...hees...

went back to kbox, sing sing for a moment, den jiu go abck down to CJ again...this time saw palani, ex manager & guna; feimao they all, ex collegue...high le lars...saw yousheng too...outside fren lai de...yousheng is wit his cousin i think so...is a baby...wit tat baby, he look so much like a unvcle...blah blah...no offence...
back to CJ, had a small chat wit palani...he asked me if wan go back work...i hen xiang, but wit this current status, dunno if still can work anot...haiish...& SUPPOSE WAN USE MY OWN MONEY BUY A CHILLI FRIES DE, BUT PALANI TREAT ME...WOOTS`~ so high... =D

smuggle the chilli fries into kbox & started eating...those who can take beef, all sya nice...of cos lars...CJ de food leh...got standard one ok...haas...but the sad thing is FRIEDAkor not working tehre anymore...hees...actually know kor not working there anymore, but didnt know tat eddie not working there anymore too...eddie now working at vivo dunno wad shop, & kor went there interview...this is wad huishan told me...sadded...

me; serina; sh & xy leave kbox early...cuz later the jiejies are going other place...xy; sh & serina went to CJ to have a lil snack, & i went home alone...
saw xaiver & his wife on the suntec shuttle bus to city hall mrt station...today high le lars...had a small chat wit xaiver, i jiu went to a seat & sit down le...
alight shuttle bus, went to have a puff, den went to take mrt...sms all the way wit blah blah...

SORRY TO YOU`~
but i shall not trust fate all the time i guess...sometimes must thinkof myself abit ya~
follow all advices given, cherish all advices...
if the advices is a good one, it brings you no harm... =)

[[_frens are forever_]]

2007-08-08T21:42:00.000+08:00

you did not get a chance to see me march...hoping so much tat you can see it one day, but i guess, i'm thinking too much...
~FRENS ARE FOREVER~

today schhol had their very own ndp...its only a small parade & some concert items...
& i'm involve in the parade...mr wong really made it happen...i really went back to the flag barrier... =D *happy*
hees...& i'm late for the reporting time as usual...kena suan by the BB officer...you good...
but for rc, i'm not the latest lors...amani, our dear SWO is the latest lors...sian...

parade consider going on well bah, JUST TAT WHEN I MARCH NEAR A BUNCH OF GALS, THEY LAUGHED LOUDLY, CAUSING ME TO UM CHIO...YOU ALL GOOD LARS...ZUO SISTERS YAO HAI WO... =x blah blah...

after parade, the parade ppl, went to get change & proceed on to the hall for the concert items le...we rc gals at the back of the hall si bei siao ars...aziz still came ask us gals to calm down abit...haas...malu...
& mr wong sang`! whaoh whoah`~ GO GO MR WONG`! haas...

after the concert items, parade ppl went back to their own classes for the reflection part, after tat, we are being dismiss le...

went to smoke outside blk as usual, den to jp to eat le...they eat, i didnt...dun feel like eating...
after eating, dunno do wad, only rmbr sher go pierce her nose...IT DUN SUIT HER K...haiish...bo bian...she wan to pierce...no matter how hard i try, she still pierce...haiish...sorry SIR`! she still pierce in the end...sorry...

after she pierce, dunno wad we do, we jiu go doro hse le...say is go doro hse lars...last minute, me & sher go find wenbin take cig, & xy went to doro hse...had a long counciling session on for sher...think she will really change bah...

[[_5th post for you_]]

2007-08-07T19:48:00.000+08:00

today is the 5th post for the sake of her again...misses? still there, always there...amount? silly question...its indescribe-able de alot liao...haiish...when will she be back? when she's back, how will things be like?

i these 2 days hen luan, hen fan...dunno if i'm doing the right thing not...i've returned RNKL everything...is this right or wrong? (just nice...now, just nice the tv is showing a part of a guy, remorseful about wad he have done...he have taken his own blood daughter nude photo...HE'S A DAMN FUCKING BASTARD`!)
to me, i'm just like him...I'M A FUCKING ASSHOLE`! once again, i hurted her...and this time, i'm sure is a very deep one...kum pua sorry...haiish...

am i doing the right thing not? i followed my fren's words, i did it the hard way...is this right? hurting someone is not nice, i dun like it... =(

in front of others, i'm as siao as before...to cover the real me...haiish...my mask is still there...tot i've taken it down le...but i'm wrong...haiish...

MISS HER`!
but
SORRY TO ANOTHER HER`!

[[_my boyboy =)_]]

2007-08-06T23:11:00.000+08:00

missing you`~
missing you`~
missing you`~
the misses is out of words to describe le...

went to sch as pernormal, but i did not attend lessons today...our school is having an exchange programme with the china Dalian students, and the ne ambassador is involve in it..so, i also suey suey kena involve in it too lors...
i'm being patnered with a china boyboy...he is so damn fking cute k...school prepare a small gift for them, & they prepare their own present for us...omfg...that boyboy gave me a four leaf clover, is expensive de k...got take plane come here de k...
den his fren agve me a 10 colour ball point pen, and a hp accessories...also got take plane come here de k...haas...

before they leave for SDC, i went up the bus to pass him my nametag for a memorial to him...he so shy can...haas...all thx to miss lim lars, sabo me say if i give him my nametag, & suey suey kena caught by DM will be scolded...rahhh...
but in the end, he still accepted it...haas...
HE IS CUTE`!

after school, went out to school to smoke, as usual...blah blah...after smoke i slack around jiu go back sch for ndp training le...today one round jiu done le, they say their performance is ok le...but the flag barrier got change plan...i'm not involve le...sian...train so long, not involve in the end...me & flag now got gan qing le k...haas...

after the round, rc wanna train for another round...msg pass down by mr wong...alot of cadets kpkb lors...sian...mr wong's msg kp nco...rahhh`!
i nth do, so find myself sumthing to do lors...my phone & wallet is wit doro, ask her help me keep, cuz serina just lost her wallet tat day...

all along, i try to find something to do lors, cuz doro; xy tehy alls ay only wait for me outside the sch at 6.30...sian...i for nth, just to find something for myself to do, i went to find anger for myself...the sub con, reflect pls...ur dreesing...haiish...but afterall, i believe tat they sure can make it on the actual day de...after tat, went to teach the 2 sec 1, who is in the sub con too...haiish...one act dao yao si, one really work hen hard, but just lack att lil bit...jyjy... =)

after everybody has gone, play wit val val they all awhile...they are doing soe drills, & i'm only there to di siao only...haas...

when i came out changed into my mufti, its only 5.30 lors...sian...managed to contact claire, end up, suppose wan meet her at pm first de, but when i go out of sch, saw doro & xy on the cab, so they tongbang me...haas...went to doro hse, wait for her to chnage, while me & xy smoke outside her hse staircase...was kena caught by doro de mama lors...omg...kena nag for awhile she jiu go le...
& doro was being shouted by claire, cuz i did not go down meet her, instead i go wit doro they all...in the end, xy & doro helped me explained to claire, & she forgive us... =)

today de story really hen long, shall update u all verbably (cuz lazy to type) if you all are interested bah... =)

[[_4th post for the sake of her_]]

2007-08-05T06:45:00.000+08:00

this is 4th post for the sake of her after she is inside...misses`!
& there is 15 more days to 21st, not including today`~
haiish...cant even go & visit her...could anything be more saddening den this...stupid case, cause everybody so much trouble...but, rmbr she say before, do le, den dun regret...i dun regret, but i just hate this kind of life...cuz of this case, she got to be remanded for 3 weeks...cuz of this case, life changes...haiish...
~I MISS HER~

woke up at 11 plus today...whole family sot le...
mama: this morning for nth give me $10...say for me, cuz i'm not goign to jb tgt wit them...
jiejie: next time when i come back home i teach u on ur studies...omg...no pls...
kokor: this morning bo dai bo ji buy bubble tea for me...good huh...
papa: NEVER SHOUTED`!
=x

& i almost tio bird shit`! walk until half, tgt wit doro & xy...was showing them my hurted area from bro's bed, & piak...bird shit flew from the sky to the ground...haas...

& i help out wit some work, for doro's mum & dad...such a good child huh...papa mama got teach me to help ppl... =/

2007-08-04T21:45:00.000+08:00

today is the 4th day le...misses growing, but did not show it out...if i show it, is sure with tat emo face de...i emo, sure others emo...so one for all, all for one, i smile...faking siao, faking smile... =) but still, misses is there...

went to bugis today...today bugis kum pua alot of ppl lors...reach bugis, go smoke, after smoke, go walk walk...
after walk walk, go junction take neos i think...take neos wit joey, sher, serina, yiqing, shuhui, amanda...got to know new frens ya~ =)
after the first neos, joey, sher, serina, shuhui & amanda went to take another time...i pok gai le, so nv take...oh yea, tis time liting alos got take...hees...
after neos, went outside neos shop, take grp photo with phone... =x
after grp photo, jiu go smoke agn...almost smoke finish, dunno wad they say got ssb or wad ars, all threw away the cig, and plan to go eat...

walk to bugis street there, they eat burger king, me, xy, amanda go out smoke, cuz we are not eating...we chatted...awhile later, doro came out, den anita came out...slowly slowly, all come out le... =p
we smoke, chat, take photo, jiu plan to go home le...cuz me & anita got probation...amanda had to go home early, serina had to go home blah blah blah...in the end, me, anita, doro, xy, sher & siokhui went to take mrt to boonlay suppose...the rest dunno they go where...
so we hug hug, & byebye`~

on the station, sher in the end wanted to wiat for song wee, so we left without her...
on the train, we chatted, & take photo...in the end, suppose only got amanda, serina, doro & xy alight at je...amanda & serina go home, xy & doro go imm...end up, we all alight at je, cuz doro asked me to go imm wit them too, except for siokhui...me & anita in the end pei doro they all go imm, persuade siokhui alight, she dun wan...so byebye`~ and we parted wit her on the train...sorry to ps u... =/

go imm, find serene di siao her... =p she working at mac too...doro helping her fren out in work...& SERENCE TREATED US DRINK WIT HER OWN $$... =D thx serene, but i'm gonna return her... =)
& doro treated me and xy sundae too...at first xy li siao ask doro treat sundae, & i also di siao ask her treat...in the end i shouted gei siao de lars, but she still bought it...thx doro... =)

after all these treats, we went to shuttle bus stop & waited for bus...hen long lors...i almost 8 liddat den manage to board the bus leh...knn...late le lors...
when reach boonlay, ma & anita went to take 242, doro & xy dunno go where...byebyes`~ doro & xy... =x

on the bus, me & anita chatted, NICE CHAT MY FAIL PATNER`~ =)

reach home arn 8.48 liddat...late le... =/ & babyCELESTE, my cousin & her husband is here at my hse...babyCELESTE is cute de lors...btw, babyCELESTE is my neice... =)

play wit babyCELESTE for awhile, went to bathe, & here i am blogging...comp is spoilt...i'm using keyboard to control everything now...sian...

haiish...shall stop here again...only wanna say,
~I MISS YOU ALOT~ x3

[[_3rd day you are inside_]]

2007-08-03T20:24:00.000+08:00

today is the 5rd day le...misses grows...everyday a letter, and try my best to post blog, doesnt seems enough for me...i wanna do more for her...feels tat i've nv done enough...feels so little of me...misses grows...other den tat, wad still grows? dunno...

really feeling lost recently...very hot tempered recently...venting my angers on everyone...sorry all...dunno wda i'm doind...just now in school after cca quarreled with a goup of ppl...they rushed towards rc, and bang into alot of them, causing them to fall...knn...push my cadets, push my dear frens...pua cb...val even cried while quarreling...
but not all of them are there...we hand this thing over to mr wong, he will report to office bah...hope they will get wad they deserve...most of my cadets are only sec one lors...they are still having tat pure heart ok...most of them is scared, and some cried...pua cb...still got one dun dare go home, cuz she say wad, some of them hate her, they will chiong towards rc becuz they wanna aim on her...i dunno...
only manage to talk to some...nvm...sua...at least some already promise to give an apology to my cadets le...

haiish...they owe an apology to my cadets, and i owe an apology too all of them arn me...i seems rebellious these days...dunno why...others words just cant to get into my head....whereby my mind is totally blank...suan le...SORRY ALL~ once again, sorry~

i still miss you~

[[_life changes_]]

2007-08-02T20:09:00.000+08:00

today is the 2nd day she's inside...everybody misses her lots lots...haiish...
got a news, saying tat i cant go visit her, got case de ppl cnt go visit her, will harm her...haiish...
miss her, and cant see her...
haiish...really as wad we all say, 3 weeks cant see her le...haiish...

today in school, did nth much...just laze arn...cant really concentrate much...forgot wad i really did le, just rmbr after sch, went to find her mum, den her mum tell us alot alot of things...hen xiang cry, but i'm not gonna cry ya~ gonna be strong~

after find her mum walk walk awhile, den go smoke...smoke le go medical center find claire's mum...she is having rashes...her rashes hen jia lat wors...almost whole body red...omg...after tat, slack at medical center, wait for her mum finish doc...her mum have to go to A&E wors...serious...her mum rushed to alexandra hospital, leaving claire at the medical center, ask her help take med...after tat, pei feli go eat, jiu say wan take bus go home le...my bus reach first, so i board the bus, and when i reach home, claire they all, forgot who le, tell me in the end they go school find pei shan they all...nvm...sua...

haiish...end her bah...nth much to say, just the same old words...
~WE MISS YOU~

[[_last day_]]

2007-07-30T20:48:00.000+08:00

today is 30072007
a day nobody wish it to come...
tmr is florence's court le...high percentage to be the sentence date le...sad... =(

standard 4 years? or like you say, 1 year? dunno nars...hope its one year, is much more better den 4 years...dunno wad to say or do, just only hope the best for you...always the same, i only wan the best for you, i only will give you the best i can give...
becuz you are the ebst in my eyes le...

frens are forever,
lovers are not...

you will never be forgotten...
i'll remember you...

[[_si bei lost_]]

2007-07-29T14:46:00.000+08:00

dunno why, si bei lost...hen luan...at first wan this, den next moment i dun wan le...den next moment i wan that again...
overall, it means that i cant make up my mind...

things and coming in and out my head...the speed is fast until i cant catch it, fast until i dunno wad i'm thinking...

rahhh`! the lost feelig is here again...i dunno wda i wanna type...now wan type this, ltr wan type tat...den feel like tying the initial one again...dunnno lars...SHITTY`!

[[___24072007]]

2007-07-24T17:59:00.000+08:00

~DISAPPOINTMENT~

[[_i give up le_]]

2007-07-21T22:57:00.000+08:00

i'm really dead le...
give up`~

~i'm hurted~

[[_lost_]]

2007-07-21T20:21:00.000+08:00

you are not mine, den why do i still care?
there's nth for me to care...heck care lars...
act like i can liddat...haiish...

i dunno lars...i'm damn fucking lost now...dunno wad the shit i'm thinking...
so now is wad, wad's the relationship in between us?
who do you love?
why break with her?
after you break with her who will you go to?
will you go away?
will you leave?
will i be forgotten?
will our memories be erased?
will things change?
rahhhh`!
dunno lars...si bei fuck...damn lost, damn blank...

[[_i really wan all the best for you_]]

2007-07-18T18:52:00.000+08:00

"爱哭鬼不哭，就不是爱哭鬼了..."

but still i will try my very best not to cry...

haiish...i'm mentally prepared for the worst le...but still wishes you all the best...still hoping that you will be probation...
but i myself knows very clearly, getting probation is not easy...even though i'm having probation now, but still i'm in a dangerous status...haiish...so i dun expect much for you...

no matter wad, i really dun wish anything happen to you...nobody will wan to see you into RTC...
tinyu;
terina;
toey;
thermaine;
song wee;
tiok hui;
titing;
doro;
ti jie;
aunty sally;
ur mama;
ur aunty;
ur uncle;
ur brothers;
nobody wans to see you into RTC...haiish...

you will always be loved by all of us...

wadeva i promised you, i promise i will fufil it all...

this is the last promise i can make to you so far...

i will listen to you de, always and forever...

[[_i will wait for you to come de_]]

2007-07-17T06:47:00.000+08:00

wadeva i said from your first court, i will do it...
life will sure change...there will sure be a change to everyone without you...
nobody wans to see you go into RTC...
one year half year also cnt!
i dunno wad i will do if you really go into RTC...
think as usual, i will cry like siao, i will go kee siao bah...

today i went kee siao at class...super siao, even joey will also say i siao, whereby everytime is she pei me siao one...
i go kee siao, so as not to cry...i promised you not to cry, so i wont...
but still i secretly drop tears during lesson and recess...sorry...
but i promised you not to slp, sorry...i slept for the last period...sorry...

nobody can live without you...i will listen to you de...i will walk on with that mask...i will put that smile one everybody's face with my smile...
i'll do wadeva you say, i'll listen to you...

you means alot to me,

you means alot to everybody...

[[_i just wish you all the best...I LOVE YOU~_]]

2007-07-15T21:09:00.000+08:00

i just wanna wish you all the best...
11 hours 43 mins left to 16072007 9.00am...

[[_new frens!_]]

2007-07-14T22:29:00.000+08:00

went for swimming at clemeti swimming complex today...dunno how to swim, but still had fun...
lets skip de swimming part, skip to the most fun part...

today i really siao le...
serina saw one kinda bute guy, den she was siao over it...
tingfang saw a kinda handsome lifeguard, and she was siao over it...
haas...

they know i got hong tabor de, so asked me to help them take their number...
I MANAGED TO GET SERINA'S GUY DE NUMBER &
TINGFANG'S GUY DE MSN!
weee...

now on msn wit tingfang's guy...his name is LINUS...wad a nice name...
i asked him if other den me got anybody else added you on msn, he said no...
RAHHH!
tingfang did not add him, in the end, i added him...WAHHH!

haas...
he's a nice guy...he has great observation too...he can see that i'm not as happy as shown on me...

haiish...
dun wish to do the countdown...only hope everything will be fine for eveyrbody...
monday~ wish you all the best~
=/

[[_sentosa day_]]

2007-07-08T21:25:00.000+08:00

woke up kinda late today, cuz only slept at 5am ytd...yawn~

once wake up, sms abit, den jiu go eat and them bathe le... (by tat time, parents and korkor was out to JB le...)

bathe till half, doro came up to my hse, to take back her cap...rahhhhh...i'm bathing lars! =/

made her wait for awhile...once i came out bathed, i jiu go and open door for her...

after awhile, we jiu leave home le...i'm going to boon lay mrt station to meet serinaBAOBEIIX; siokhuiSISTER...we are going to sentosa after tat... =)
and as for doro, she's going home, cuz she had to work... (thx for accompanying me wait for the bus ya~and the $2...)

i was late...when i reach there serinaBAOBEIIX; siokhuiSISTER is there le...sorry sorry...when i reached, shermaineSISTER is there too, but she's waiting for songwee... =/
not long after i reach, we jiu leave le....rushing time...we only had little time to play, so we rushed, in order to have longer time to play... =)

saw terrence at the station too...he's going to je for tuition...pathetic him... =p
had a nice chat througout...the first time i dun feel sian on the train... =)

to me, very quickly, we jiu reach harbourfront le...
took tram to sentosa...had a little joke while buying tickets...haas...pathetic counter person...he look not bad huh... =p

had a little joke at the tram station too...pai seh nars...we today abit siao le...haas...
very fast de, we reached siloso beach, and we went to find serinaBAOBEIIX de sister and her frens...they are a group of fun girls i can say...

reach there, jiu had been hoon...serinaBAOBEIIX de sister de...i bought some fried stuff, and some of them like it...phew...
standard routine, after eat jiu smoke... =p so i went to somewhere away from them to smoke...cuz didnt wanted to let serinaBAOBEIIX de sister know i smoke... =/

when i'm back from my smoke, saw serinaBAOBEIIX; siokhuiSISTER in the water, so when to join them too...had fun...

but got one part not fun... =( i nearly drowned...
was singing and had fun in the water actually...but paying too much attention in playing, didnt know that i'm drifing away...as i didnt know how to swim, i nearly drowned, as it was too deep le...
made a joke out of myself man...was damn scared...phew...lucky there was siokhuiSISTER...THX SIOKHUI`! ILU`!

after the drowning thing, and after i got better, i'm back to normal...hees...as in, i went back siao-ing; playing... =p

play for awhile more, we jiu go up to the shore, help look after the things, while the rest of the JIEJIES go bathe...took some lame photos...hees...

after awhile, our turn to go and bathe le...the queue was damn fucking long nors...shitty...sentosa is a public place, not ur hse k...pls dun bathe slowly in there!
HAD A LONG TIME WAITING...fuck them one by one nars`!

after bathe, i jiu must rush home le...had to reach home by 7, but at 6.30, i'm still at sentosa... >.<

took tram out of sentosa, den went to vivo de covered carpark de taxi stand...the taxi queue was damn fucking long lors...knn...waited for arn 30 mins for one cab...rahhhh...arn 7.10 den i got a cab lors...die liao...late liao... =(

the uncle power shioh...i reach home arn 7.30 liddat lors...from harbourfront to jurong, 20 mins...nice one!

but still, i'm late for curfew time...haiish...reach home, mama and papa nagged...sian...standard one...

2007-07-07T20:16:00.000+08:00

07072007
wad a nice date!
but this day to me was like...............
haiish...alot Alot ALOT of things happen...

woke up kinda late, den rushed out to bank take $$, den back to home bathe and then out to meet siokhuiSISTER; serinaBAOBEIIX; tingfangJIE; florenceLAUUUUUUUUBA; xinyuTWINNIEcumLAUUUUUUUUUUBUcumMEI; feliciaMARIA...

went to je...
at mrt station, saw cheeseng...OMG...i was trying to lit a cigeratte lors...rahhhhhhhh...
nvm...den after tat went to jec tgt wit joeyPAHBUEYTOH; alvin"AHMA"; liyanaMUMMY; kelvin"DADDY"...but when reach jec, we go in our seperate ways... =p

went to had neos... =) suppose wan all take de, in the end only me; serinaBAOBEIIX; tingfangJIE take...sian...nvm...had kinda fun when taking neos...

haiish...keep making her angry...haiish...hen sorry.....didnt wanted to cause her angry...no intention at all...haiish...

after neos, went out of jec...we smoked, and had some lame fun.. =p
after jec jiu to IMM le...

reached IMM, went to mac, find doro...she working over there... =/ ate mac at there too...thx xinyuTWINNIEcumLAUUUUUUUUUBUcumMEI for the meal...ahall return you the $$ one day...

after food went to smoke again...a bastard called me...knn...he called made so many of us there du lan, or rather bek cek bah...nvm...forget about him...
after smoke dunno do wad again, den went to play and smoke again...bleahx...smoke non-stop... =/

after smoke went to the covered carpark area for shuttle bus back to boon lay...serinaBAOBEIIX; tingfangJIE parted wit us there...they walked back to jurong east mrt station, cuz meeting soemone there blah Blah BLAH...

reached boon lay i jiu went home from there le...had to reach home before 7...SIAN NARS!

reach home i forgot do wad le, den jiu online...forgot to post...keep downloading songs only... =p
after awhile someone called...had alot of phone chats ytd...and saddening things happen again...haiish...daily routine...sadded...

[[_tmd suey_]]

2007-07-06T21:55:00.000+08:00

ba0beiix say i very long den undate once, so shall update today...sort of kinda alot of things happen today bah...

in school:
feels that today school hen short, cuz didnt had much lesson...

d&t: to me, the most relaxing subject le...did some paperwork, den to hands-on...during hands-on, chatted wit ba0beiix, den dunno why, hen emo...hen luan...dunno wad the fuck i'm thinking...argh...sua!

chemistry: mr wong did some hen amazing de experiment...dunno wad he do, drinking water can change to pink colour, den to purple, den he say if blow some air into the mix, den will become transparent again...dunno him...he did not bring straw, so he did not complete the experiment...

after awhile, i'm being called down for dental check-up...just reach the place (somewhere in school, near school carpark and canteen), the bell for recess went off...mr mohamad ask me and joey to go for our recess first...joey was suppose to be in front of me, but its not turn yet...
den off we went for recess...

english/dental-check-up: after my food, i jiu went for the check-up le...i played mr mohamad PDA phone... =p (after recess is english...)
waited awhile, my turn to go into the little space for dental check le...still at joey's turn, so i waited lors...after joey's mine...

dental-check: the dentist siao siao de...keep telling me she's gonna do this, she's gonna do that...act like i care...just shake head nod head to go with her lors...den she say she's gonna clean my teeth...i shaked head, and i regretted...
she used a dunno wad fucking device to help me clean, the head of it is needle-like...and that stupid needle-like thing keep poking until my gums...pain de lors...poke until all the gums above my teeth all bleed ars...but its ok lars...she poke tat moment pain, after that is alright le...

CME: when i go back is CME le...miss tan showed us a video...kinda nice bah...didnt di much during CME, a slacking period...a period for us to chit chat i suppose...

math: miss pang, wasnt here and a relieve staff came...we were damn fucking happy lors...in the end, miss pang turns up...sadded...once she come in jiu scold scold scold...siao de...
math just go through some work nias...she is taking up too much time scolding and being late for class le... =/

AFTER MATH JIU DISMISS SCHOOL LE!

went outside school for some smoking session again... =/ smoke and waited for florence to arrive too...she just woke up by then...
after florence came, dunno why, sit outside school area awhile, den to blk601, intending to buy some cig which ah long and roy ask me to help buy...couldnt find anyone there to help, so off we went to pineer mall again...

at pioneer mall, intending to look for security guard and buy, but he was nowhere to be seen...nvm...go up 2nd floor find YVONNE, a cut hair de kinda pretty lady...she looks young ok...
asked her help to buy cig...she said ok...yes! i knew she would help... =) after buying cig, brought her and roy, who was following me all the way, to koufu to look for florence and xinyu...
after looking up for them, roy went home with 4 of the cig for me... =D nice guy...and then off we went to staircase for another smoking session...haas...

came out, saw my pri5 good fren, ANGEL! she's back in singapore...happy ya~
saw some of the school teachers too...sian~

after that, forgot abit wad we do le, just rmbr ms sherry peng called me and scold scold scold...scold me for not going to today de trng blah blah blah...and wanted me to reach school in 15 mins time...sian diao...

half way, almost reaching, saw roy...he jio me for another stick...sccepted...
after smoking, he tong-bang me to school with his bike...had some scratches on my leg, due to the scratch from his bike wheels...sian...

went to school, ms peng nag me again...no choice, stand there listen nors...after that, went to get changed, and off i go for the rc trng...boring nors...NCOs only down there slack...nahs...

after trng was a short NCOs meeting...meeting until we didnt take note of the time lors...when i asked mr wong time izzit, IT WAS 6.50PM LE! and i got to reach home by 7...siao liao...asked mr wong for permission to leave early, and off me and nicholas tee...he also under probation...pathetic us...run like mad can...doro pei me home...thx doro... =)

reach home jiu sian le...bathe, tv, eat, comp, on phone...no more le... =(

[[_cute guy or siao peh_]]

2007-06-30T21:38:00.000+08:00

went to see probation officer today...before leaving the house i had a quarrel wit mama, so in the end she didnt go wit me where she is suppose to go too...forget about it...thats not the point...

in the end, i went out with rainJIEJIE...she brings me to novena and show me the way to the bus stop where i can board the bus to MCYS...its my first time taking public transpot there mars, so i noob dunno can...i got a thinking of taking a cab actually...hehes...

we boarded mrt to novena first...
when on the mrt, at jurong east, a guy boardred the train...he not bad looking hurs... =p but after he boardred the train, he keep moving towards me and rainJIEJIE, until he stands besides us...
so the strange...there's still alot of spaces, like the other side of us or wadsoeva, but why besides us?

we alighted at raffles place, to change to the north-east line to novena...he alighted too, and stand somewhere naer us again... =x den we was like "siao peh~" the train comes, we boarded...
he sits in front of me! siao de...den my next thinking was, he is going to orchard...conclusion from the way he dress...

when it reaches somerset, he did not alight...den me and rainJIEJIE was like, "next stop next stop...next stop orchard"...lucky he alighted at orchard, if not he will really be a siao peh in our mind le...bad impression...hehes...
but he is quite good looking anyway... =p

when we reach novena, we headed to the bus stop...behind the bus stop is a 7-11 like shop(convenient shop?), named cheers... we was thirsty, so went to buy a can of Anything and Whatever...Anything for rainJIEJIE and Whatever for me...
i got peach tea! weets...my favourite...
but rainJIEJIE got coke... =/ she dun really like it...

after buying drinks i jiu head to MCYS le, cuz my bus reach earlier den rainJIEJIE bus...
bidded farewell and there i go...

reached MCYS, the probation officer kao bei kao bu me again...say i shouldnt have quarrled with parents, shouldnt be disrespectful to teachers blah blah blah...sua...

after MCYS headed back to pioneer mall to meet up with joey for some smoking...hehes...i cannot live without ciggarettes... =p

[[_gonna die soon_]]

2007-06-29T19:11:00.001+08:00

wahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
i'm going to die soon...

[[_ARGH~_]]

2007-06-24T21:25:00.000+08:00

its only the second day of probation, but i feel like dying le... =/
NOT USED BEING CONTROLLED LARS! everytime reach home le must give call...den must control control control...
cannot go LAN shop; arcade or wadeva shit...knn...how to live on ars?!

den papa mama come back le...the kpkb papa mama come back liao... =x
everything also kpkb...i give lan jiao bin also kpkb...pua cb lars!
now korkor also become uncle liao...also kpkb...
no lors...i wit korkor, not kpkb de...straight fight...knn...
I WANNA IMPROVE ON MY FIGHTING!

quote from a tv commercial: you must pay for going the bad way

[[_haiish...probation..._]]

2007-06-23T22:20:00.000+08:00

haiish...tio probation...7pm must reach home, 6am den can leave...haiish...HOW TO PASS THIS KIND OF LIFE? omg...

haiish...dunno wad to say, i now hen blank...only got one thing in my mind...
iSTILL LOVE HER!

[[_The Wreckers - Cigarettes_]]

2007-06-12T18:49:00.000+08:00

Artist: The Wreckers
Song: Cigarettes

Got my headlights shining
Down an old dirt road
Smoke my cigarettes
I should quit I know

The radio's playing
Old country songs
Someone's leaving, someone's cheating
On and on

I think I might like
The quiet nights
Of this empty life

'Cause someday maybe
Somebody will love me like I need
And someday I won't have to prove
'Cause somebody will see
all my worth but until then
I'll do just fine on my own
With my cigarettes
And this old dirt road

See I left another
Good man tonight
I wonder if he'll miss me
Lord knows I tried

But I think that maybe
The thing that I did wrong
Was put up with his bullshit
For far too long

I think I might like
The quiet nights
Of this empty life

'Cause someday maybe
Somebody will love me like I need
And someday I won't have to prove
'Cause somebody will see
all my worth but until then
I'll do just fine on my own
With my cigarettes
And this old dirt road

I ain't gonna sleep
I ain't gonna dream
About the things that I used to need
I ain't gonna cry
Or go on living lies
I'm just gonna drive

'Cause someday maybe
Somebody will love me like I need
And someday I won't have to prove
'Cause somebody will see
all my worth but until then
I'll do just fine on my own
With my cigarettes
And this old dirt road

'Cause someday maybe
Somebody will love me like I need
And someday I won't have to prove
'Cause somebody will see
all my worth but until then
I'll do just fine on my own
With my cigarettes
And this old dirt road

[[_mama change le_]]

2007-06-12T15:33:00.000+08:00

think mama and papa know i smoke le...is that good?

korkor said i took his cig, and he wanna beat me up...fuck him lars, act like i know where he put his cig liddat...cuz of this cig thing, korkor locked the comp, not allowing me to use...selfish him...mama and papa got know of this...

me: daddy! help me unlock the comp, i wanna use...
papa: did u irritate korkor anot? why he locked the comp not letting u use?
me: how i know him ars? siao one...
mama: he say meimei take his cig...
me: act like i know here he ut his cig la hors...
mama: u nv smoke how will he accuse u? i nv smoke, u got see he accuse me not? no right...wad for girls smoke? its unsightly, and u have to smoke secretly...fun meh?

i didnt continued...just allow her to nag...nagging is her job mars...one day nv nag she will feel uncomfortable de.. =/

u think mama know i smoke? i did tell her before i have frens who smoke, and i hang out with them too...and previuosly i smoked, she caught me, and did not allow me to continue smoking...so all along i lied to her, saying that i've quited smoking...

mama really changed le wors...
i now almost everyday go out, nv kao bei kao bu le lors...got nag abit la, but not like last time le, everyday go out, everyday nag...why didnt she kao bei kao bu already???
go out 8pm must reach home still applies, but most of the time i'm late, either 9 or 10 den reach home, but mama also nv say anything...why didnt she scold???
previuosly when korkor got court case, mama everyday nag him, but korkor still everyday go out or wadsoeva la...i got court case, mama also nv say a thing...just sometimes she will control me from doing some things, cuz dun wanna be scolded by the stupid judge again...why didnt she nag???

wad happen to mama wors? is this good or bad?

tmr is going to court le...i promised mama i'll pei her after my court tmr...she has really been good to me recently...
no money, she will give me, although she dun have much cash with her...
she knows i love drinking milk, she went to buy milk for me to drink...papa recently also got buy for me wors...hehes...
last time i liked strawberries, she went to buy for me to eat, although it is expensive...
i no phone use, she let me use hers...although she knows i use phone can use till bomb de, and hers is prepaid card wors...
AND SHE ALLOWED ME TO SCOLD VULAR AT HOME?!

OMG! wad happen to papa and mama? cuz of my court case? but they should be du lan, but they are even nicer...
wad happen?
is this good or bad?

[[_200 pounds beauty very nice!_]]

2007-06-08T17:38:00.000+08:00

just finsh watching 200 pounds beauty...ITS SO DAMN NICE LORS! i love it alot alot...whaoh whaoh...damn touching de, damn nice...

the love story in it was like..................touching...
hurhurs...i'm touched by it...

these are the OST of the show...

Song: Byul

Artist: Kim Ah Joong

this is the video:

[[_back from camp_]]

2007-06-06T20:56:00.000+08:00

just back from camp...this whole camp is slack de lors...fun camp mars...but still........., yawn...hen tired...but compared to the last few camps, this one very slack le...but i felt more tired lors...omg...i not human...argh~

day one:
woke up late, so had to chiong cab down to meet fren take shoes before heading for camp...need 2 shoes for one camp lors...siao de...hehes...had a stick first before i headed school...3D2N cant smoke leh, I WILL DIE DE LOR!
=p

reached school, had a little chat in the canteen before to parade square to assemble...assemble le jiu bag check...standard routine...bleahx...bag check le jiu seperate into groups le...
my group de trainer is MING HUI from innotrek(a company's name)...she a super duper nice person...love her so much...bu MY GROUP DE SEC ONE IS QUIET DE LORS! I CANT STAND QUIET PEOPLE! wahhhh...tried to di siao around the group, to make them smile...yes...they did smile...for one or two second only lors...wtf...
di siao till tired le, give up...head to campsite, MOE Dairy Farm...

reach there, also forgot wad we do first...just rmbr the main thing of the day is bukit timah hill hike and night hike...

bukit timah hill hike makes me feel so sticky lors...its dirty de lors...tiring, but kinda fun i can say...nice one...

night hike is just as fun...hahas...i not feeling well so priviledge, i went off wit my daughter JIAMIN, where-else everybody went off alone in the night, in the middle of the jungle...hahas...so long not wit JIAMIN le, so glad to be wit her again...hahas...both of us were scared, but we overcome it tgt...hahas...MAMA AND DAUGHTER POWER! bleahx...

that day hen early jiu went to slp le...their nights off hen early, reporting time is later den previous camps...very good lor, can slp longer...hehes...

slept like pig that night...but in the middle of the night i got wake up...hehes...

day two:
repoted at 0650...its consider late liao lors...hehes...had breadfast, den activities started...the main activities of the day is high elements and campfire! weets...both is just as fun... =D

tried POSTMAN WALK first...i'm not scared at all lors...just wanna slp only...dunno why, hen tired... =p trainer MINGHUI asked me to sing "you are my sunshine" on top...whaoh...hen pai seh lors, but i still sing it, just that i rushed through the song...hehes...avoid pai seh...

the one i tried next is ROCK CLIMBING...rock climbing is not easy de lors...you need alot of strength...i can climb a little bit, but when only climb abit, i no energy le...i fell...lucky so unno wad string to hold la, for sfety use de...upon falling, i did not come down, instead i tried to swing myself back, grab hold of some holders, and continue climbing...climb le one or two, i fall again...sian...i really no energy le...haiish...so i gave up and came down...fuck de lors...I WAN COMPLETE IT!

the third one, which is the last one i tried, is the one I LOVE THE MOST! ZIPLINE! woots...hen fun...i'm the first one to try it...hehes...they asked for volunteer to be the first, no one raised, den somemore i aim zipline hen jiu le, so i raised...I'M THE FIRST TO GO UP! buey haio bye...
alot of people screamed, some cired after trying...me? i no expression...hahas...not scared at all, just thigh hen pain...the hannas (dunno how to spell) is too tight le...awwww...
BUT ZIPLINE IS REALLY FUN LORS! wanted to try again de, but no time...sian...I WANNA PLAY AGAIN~

the next main thing is the CAMPFIRE...i can say that its the best campfire i ever had lors...the mc for campfire, HAZ and HAKIM is just so fun! seniors camp back...got SHISHI...woots...so long nv see her le, so happy to see her again...had a little chat wit her... =)
fine...back to campfire...
everybody there is just so high during the campfire lors...all so enthu, all so loud when cheering, all so happy~ had never seen such a successful campfire...nice nice...

this day, i became the asst. ic, cuz my group de asst. ic went off le...sian...had night patroling that night...is scary de lors...imagine you walk in a ulu ulu campsite, den can hear frogs croaking sounds very very clearly, in the middle of the night 0030...but lucky i did night patrol wit KANGQIlaopo and TEOWEIYANG...

finish patroling at around 0100 liddat...went back to dorm, jiu slp le...like pig liddat...hehes...

day three:
reported at 0720...this time is set by them de lors, not i late lors...its very late le lors...this is the first time i need to report so late for a overnight camp...omg...
had breadfast after reporting...frankly speaking, the breadfast this day sucks...but its the last meal there le...appreciate...

after breadfast was area cleaning...all the time we had area cleaning, my group was asked to clean canteen...consider is a hen slack de job le, as compared to cleaning toilets and the dorm...hehes...me and nadiah one of the job is to scrub the washing area de floor...we had to srcb the stains away...its not one or two stains hors, its almost the whole place le...but me and nadiag clean until we end up playing...hahas...and we found out one things, the results of us cleaning while we are playing, is better den we focus and scrub...hehes...

forgot wad exactly we do le, just rmbr had prize giving and departure...
and guess wad~ MY GROUP GOT THE BEST GROUP FOR THE CAMP! MY GROUP IS THE BEST GROUP! hahas...miracle...hahas...

after prize giving dunno got wad, den jiu depart from there le...hugged my trainer, MINGHUI...said "i will miss you de"...hurhurs...hen sad lors...like her alot, she's really really very very very super duper nice lors...LOVE HER SO MUCH CAN~ but still got to part...haiish...almost cried out...SAD~

will miss them lots lots...will love this camp lots lots...hurhurs...i wan TIME MACHINE~

p.s. there's still bits here and there in the story...shall ask me if interested! =) gonna edit this soon...just post here first... =p

[[_once again, i'm blank_]]

2007-06-04T02:11:00.001+08:00

its so late le, yet i haven slp...hahas...cant get to slp...and there's a 3D2N camp starting from tmr...hahas...

is things getting better or worse? we both know ourselves very clearly, we are not meant for each other...nvm...that's not the point...

the thing is, i still love her?
she made herself very clear to me le...she LOVE ME NO MORE...and we are like great frens still...really great frens? do i treat her as a fren not? i know myself best, i love her still, and she knows it...

feel myself like playing on her feeling...dun love her still stead...omg...
alot of people are saying i buey tiong xim, i'm super knnbccb...i also feel so...
but she too cant forget her mars...and we have our purpose to go stead with each other...i have no need to explain to anyone...we two know is enough...

but does that mean that we can go for no love stead-ing? no right...knn...i dunno lars...wad ever comes to me, i'll just react accordingly lars...
pua cb...feels that my life getting more and more complicated...

can i have a simple life?

and i LOVE HIM NO MORE~
pua cb! dun come to me le lars...super knnbcFUCKER!

[[_would you be there?_]]

2007-05-29T02:57:00.000+08:00

Song: Would You Be There?
Artist: Redwan Ali

If I were blue would you be there for me
And whisper in my ear that's okay
Would you stand by me let me hold you tight
And say you love me one more time

If I feel good would you slow dance with me
And touch my lips with tender loving care
Would you die for me would you run with me
And never look back

Would you be there to love to be with me
Would you swear that your love is always true
Would you say that you'll always be the one
To take my breath away

Would you be there to love to be with me
Would you swear that your love is always true
Would you say that you'll always be the one
To take my breath away
Would you be there

If I'm away would you still think of me
And wish that you could hold me now (Hold me now)
Would you die for me would you run with me
All the way

Would you be there to love to be with me
Would you swear that your love is always true
Would you say that you'll always be the one
To take my breath away

Would you be there to save my soul tonight (Save my soul tonight)
Would you swear that your love is always true
Would you say that you'll always be there
To kiss my pain away

Would you be there to love to be with me
Would you swear that your love is always true
Would you say that you'll always be the one
To take my breath away

Would you be there to save my soul tonight (Save my soul tonight)
Would you swear that your love is always true
Would you say that you'll always be there
To kiss my pain away

Would you be there
For me

would you be there? would you be there? would you be there?
no~~you wont be there...and i dun need you to be there too...seeing you hurts me...dunno for why...

rather be frens~
frens are forever ya~

[[_redwan ali - would you be there_]]

2007-05-28T00:36:00.001+08:00

this song is nice...
Song: Would You Be There
Artist: Redwan Ali

thsi song doesnt relates to me at all, but just find this song nice...the rythm is nice, the vocal is nice, everything is nice...

if everybody's life would be as nice, wouldnt it be great?
or am i thinking too much?

[[_start everything anew?_]]

2007-05-26T12:25:00.000+08:00

so long since i last updated ya~
haiish...

kinda lots of things happen bah...
1st: problems arising
2nd: court case
3rd: results
4th: parents trust
5th: freedom
6th: NO MONEY! NO CIGGERETTE~SOBBS~

intending to start my life all over again...i mean, forget all the past unhappiness, and lead my life again?

can i? intend to forget all the unhappiness wit serina ba0beiix...can we do it? haas...i dunno man...just being siao recently lors...that's wad i'm doing in class...SIAO~!
also dunno why, i will just go siao bah...go siao can really make one forget? haas...dunno...just go siao...haas...

starting my holiday today~weets...haiish...no plan...dun wanna go back school for any cca man...no way~hehes...
but my beloved form teacher has becomed our new cca teacher, she just joined my cca...she's a nice teacher wors, den she treat me very good also...haiish...but i jus dun feel like going for any cca this holiday mars...haiish...
maybe suang jiu go lors...
(i dunno wad's the cca schedule for june holiday anyway... =p )

announcement~

lee xinhue is free on june holiday man...
appointment can be made anytime...
=)

oops...shall end here...
I'LL TRY MY BEST TO START EVERYTHING ANEW?
=)

2007-05-12T23:44:00.000+08:00

That's Why (You Go Away)
- Michael Learns To Rock

Baby won't you tell me why there is sadness in your eyes
I don't wanna say goodbye to you
Love is one big illusion
I shall try to forget
But there is something left in my head

You're the one who set it up
Now you're the one to make it stop
I'm the one who's feeling lost right now
Now you want me to forget every little thing you said
But there is something left in my head

I won't forget the way you're kissing
The feelings so strong were lasting for so long
But I'm not the man your heart is missing
That's why you go away I know

You were never satisfied no matter how I tried
Now you wanna say goodbye to me
Love is one big illusion I should try to forget
But there is something left in my head

I won't forget the way you're kissing
The feelings so strong were lasting for so long
But I'm not the man your heart is missing
That's why you go away I know

Sitting here all alone in the middle of nowhere
Don't know which way to go
There is so much to say now between us
There ain't so much for you
There ain't so much for me anymore

I won't forget the way you're kissing
The feelings so strong were lasting for so long
But I'm not the man your heart is missing
That's why you go away I know

[[_last chapter_]]

2007-05-10T20:11:00.000+08:00

my story isnt a fairy tale story, therefore there is no happily ever after ending...

and the story has ended...
it ended with my fault...
i'm thinking too much...

sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry

the story ends...

[[_blank blank blank_]]

2007-04-25T21:59:00.000+08:00

never had such a big quarrel wit her before...
WOOTS...I LOVE IT SO MUCH CAN!

dunno wad the fuck is happening lars...i lao lan...hahas...
SUA!

[[_last words_]]

2007-04-15T21:39:00.000+08:00

i'm tired and really sick le...

dun care wad you gonna do,

i dun wan care le...

i cant do anything anyway,

so i'm not gonna do any thing...

isnt this the way you wan it to be.?

i dunno wad to do,

so i intend to do nth...

i'm gonna be selfish this time...

i'm not gonna care for any thing...

i'm only gonna care for myself...

this i promise,

it will hard for me to get in love again...

[[_i just love you_]]

2007-04-07T21:39:00.000+08:00

irregardless of wad fuck, i just love u k...irregardless of wad choice u make, i'll respect...i've told u this before, dun say sorry...u are not at fault...k...

i just love you...

love you too...
PAHBUEYTOH!

[[_ITS HER!_]]

2007-04-04T22:17:00.000+08:00

so wad if there no you!
i still have lots of people around me!
there's still her!

I DUN NEED YOU!

[[_being siao can forget oneself?_]]

2007-03-26T20:14:00.000+08:00

today whole day at class siao...now den i know, being can make one forget oneself... =p

today totally whole day at class is high de lors...today whole day at school is happy de lors, but not outside school...hurhurs...but at least i get to feel the happiness for tat little moment...

can everyday be liddat?

[[_sad sad sad_]]

2007-03-25T22:35:00.000+08:00

fine...its alright...i dun give it a damn to everything le...

>>lost my job...for dunno wad reason...

>>saw me like nobody buisness, except when u give me cig and i gave u chewing gum...

>>"you shi zhong wu yan, wu shi xia yin chun" (there's you when there's problem, there's no you when there's no problem) de life...

>>no cigarette for days le...

>>nobody seems to be there for me when i need help...they only come i dun need help or when everything is over...

>>phone MIA*

>>there's you in the world, but not wit me...

>>headache for dunno how fcuking days le...

>> ISTILLLOVESYOU**

[[_I DUN GIVE IT A DAMN, I ONLY LOVE MY GF NOW_]]

2007-03-13T12:24:00.001+08:00

" ar lar...still got xinhue like u mar... "

" i dun give it a damn,

i only love my girlfriend now... "

fine..!! CONSIDER ME STUPID TO WASTE WATER FOR YOU CAN?! CONSIDER ME STUPID TO WASTE MY RESOURCE OVER YOU..!!

JUST CONSIDER ME STUPID TO
WASTE BLOOD

WASTE CIGARRETTE

WASTE WATER..!!

[[_sad si wo_]]

2007-03-08T20:48:00.004+08:00

99% discount...

only 3 slits this time...

100% charge...

iLOVEHIM...

[[_at chong de hse_]]

2007-02-21T16:51:00.000+08:00

knn...now is wad?! everybody wanna die over love izzit?! i die, my gan-di die, my gan-di "ex" die, my gan-jie die, alot alot lar...fcuk man...wad world is tis?! see liao also sian lor...huh!!

why is the love so killing?! why izzit tat some people can be so happily in love?! and some people just cant...fcuk lar...

love sux nar...

(gan ni na bei cao zi bai...)

huh..!!

[[_everything is over_]]

2007-02-09T23:37:00.000+08:00

EVERYTHING HAS COME TO AN END NOW.....

NO MORE ENDING FOR THIS LOVE.....

MY HEART ONCE AGAIN IS BROKEN.....

new year is coming...today just went to jp to replenish my new yr clothes...today only bought one pair of shoes and a belt...bought nth much today, today just go there for fun nia...

when reach home, i tried out my full "uniform"...and i calculate one of the set's amount...

and..................

in total for that PARTICULAR SET, its cost me......... $104 ++

has never bought such an expensive set of clothes before...cuz everytime i pok gai no money buy, den tis yr got papa mama spon abit, den spend so much...wad fcuk...

gonna save money to return them abit le...feel so bad using they so much money...they very pok also, den still spend so much on me...hurhurs...whereby i tis yr is not a very good gal...hurhurs...

must work hard hard return them money liao...hurhurs...

[[_so sad_]]

2007-02-03T19:24:00.000+08:00

was so sad lor...fdc didnt go on smoothly, we lost...sianded...haiish...
although i was in the reserve but tat doesnt mean i dun care about the squad...lose le i also not happy...sian...

after tat mr wong treated all of us at kfc...even the supporters wor...whaoh...guess how much is the bill...?? $128+ tat was......................plus he gave us a cute brown little pig soft-toy hp accessories...one if i'm not wrong is $1.90, and he bought almost 20 of it...hurhurs...HIS POCKET AR...!!

and yet we win nth...we letted him down...haiish...

SORRY MR WONG...REALLY REALLY VERY SORRY...

[[_all good things come to an end_]]

2007-01-16T21:52:00.000+08:00

All good things (come to an end)

- Nelly Furtado

Honestly what will become of me

I don't like reality

It's way too clear to me

But really life is daily

We are what we don't see

We missed everything daydreaming

Flames to dust

Lovers to friends

Why do all good things come to an end

Flames to dust

Lovers to friends

Why do all good things come to an end

(come to an end, come to an end

Why do all good thins come to an end)x2

Travelling I always stop at exits

Wondering if I'll stay

Young and restless

Living this way I stress less

I want to pull away when the dream dies

The pain sets it and I don't cry

I only feel gravity and I wonder why

Flames to dust

Lovers to friends

Why do all good things come to an end

Flames to dust

Lovers to friends

Why do all good things come to an end

(come to an end, come to an end

Why do all good thins come to an end)x2

The dogs were whistling a new tune

barking at the new moon

hoping it would come soon so that they could die

The dogs were whistling a new tune

barking at the new moon

hoping it would come soon so that they could die

Flames to dust

Lovers to friends

Why do all good things come to an end

Flames to dust

Lovers to friends

Why do all good things come to an end

(come to an end, come to an end

Why do all good thins come to an end)x2

Well the dogs were barking at the new moon

Whistling a new tune

Hoping it would come soon

And the sun was wondering if it should stay away for a day until the feeling went away

And the sky was falling

And the clouds were dropping and the...

The rain forgot how to bring salvation

The dogs were barking at the new moon

Whistling a new tune

Hoping it would come soon so that they could die

the song of my blog...its nice de lor...nice lyrics too...especially the chorus part.........WHAO...!! its nice de lor...WOOTS...!!

recently all good things really come to an end for me le...friends falling out, relationship break, studies stress, family fights......................damn it...

hope all good things will come back to me one day bah...

" i've grown...i'm no longer the little kid in me...i'm a big child now...i know wad is right, wad is wrong...so dun tell me anymore fcuk...cuz i dun wish to hear... "

2007-01-06T17:40:00.000+08:00

why must you do this to me?! you let me love and hate you..wad do you expect me to do?! i really cant forget you lors..

i see you i heart pain, thinking of the days every second of my life..

fcuk lars........!!

how i wish i can kill you tis evry moment..no no..if i kill you i will think of you even more..den can i kill myself?!

hates lars..........!!

[[_i cant forget you all..i miss you all_]]

2006-12-26T15:20:00.000+08:00

hate it de lor..because me do wrong things, den cause family and frens quarrel, den in the end me left wit no one..stupid..

i really cant bear to leave you all de lor..all the happy and sad time we spend..all the quarrel and smiles we have..all the fighting and hugging we do..all the kissing and spitting we give..all the scolding and comforting we did..all the phone chats and sms we send..all cannot be forgotten for me..

how i wish the problem can be settled, and my parents will let me go wit you all..how i wish that will happen..hope it really can happen some day..really wish for that..

my upcoming new year wish is to join back you all and have all the fun..

iLOVEYOU ALL...................

[[_you left me_]]

2006-12-05T11:39:00.000+08:00

thought of being with you for at least months, but you left me now..although it happen yesterday, but was so damn sad even now..should expect this in the first place, me and him are not suitable..haiish..

will never be together again..wont patch le..for sure..

BUT i wanna say, i still LOVE HIM..

[[_FDC ` 2007_]]

2006-12-01T19:14:00.000+08:00

has been training for FDC `2007 recently..hmms..i can say this year training was much better den last year de..last year de training see them train like siao, this year de only training from 9.30 to 12.30, for i think 3 days a week.. (didnt really go and count..oops..)

hmms..didnt really get tanned out of the training, so sad..i wanna get tanned..darker den him..hehes..

bought one pacifier today, pooh de..its cute alright..hehes..went to suck that pacifier at wr house and all of them say me childish..hmrpf..i was fat, so to stop me from eating, i went to suck pacifier, good idea right..hehes..still got one person worse more, went to call him, den tell him i'm sucking a pacifier, den he call me baby and bo liao..hmrpf..bo liao is lee xinhue de character mars..hehes..

hmms..shall end here bah..nothing much to say le..only can say, iLOVEHIM..

[[_i've found him_]]

2006-11-24T19:57:00.000+08:00

so long not here..miss my blog..hehes..

went for footdrill competition de first training..hmms..today is the first time i do footdrill do until not that tired..maybe because its just some stationary drills and some marching, no hentak, therefore its still okay bah..hehes..

after that went for kfc lunch with laopo, meiix, alice, val, veron and joyce..had 2 seperate tables..sad sad, cuz not enough seats..haiish..not much bonding..

while queing for food, saw a poster that they needa hire people..weets..thats wad i'm looking for..A JOB VACANCY..hehes..so after food, i went to have a job application form from the crew..too bad nobody wanna join me in this work..haiish..

after filling up the application form, had a small interview with the fifth commander, so call the fifth in-charge..SHE'S A NICE PERSON OKAY..hehes..now i'm waiting for the manager's call..hope i can recieve it..hehes..

after that, i went alone with alice..accompany her go meet someone, but in the end alos never meet, cuz she have to rush home..haiish..sad sad for her..

after that i went to meet tee..he pathetic sia..by the time he comes alice have to go home le..hehes..so left me and him..so we went loiter around jp awhile, den go pm slack..

around 5 liddat i go home le..haiish..didnt get to see him..sad sad..i miss him..haiish..hope me and him everything will get better..no more misunderstanding..haiish..

GOD, PLEASE HELP ME..............

[[_HATE LOVE_]]

2006-11-02T00:20:00.000+08:00

I HATE LOVE LIFE !!

LOVE SUX..

LOVE HURTS..

LOVE TORTURES..

[[_28/10/2006_]]

2006-10-30T06:50:00.000+08:00

sorry for posting this post only until today, cuz recently cant get to use the comp..

28/10/2006 was the I&E carnival..guess wad, miss oon came back to jwss and i got to met her..so happy..MISS OON HUGGED ME SO THIGHTLY..SO HAPPY.. hehes..

p.s. miss oon, i post it..i've kept my promise..smilex.. :>

other den the I&E carnival, that day i really had myself great fun..that day really happen lots of things, lots of shocking things..hehes..shall not tell you wad happen..oops..sorry..

but overall, i really had my fun that day..

28/10/2006

[[_GUYS SUX_]]

2006-10-19T23:57:00.000+08:00

GUYS SUX !!

GUYS ONLY KNOWS HOW TO BREAK GIRLS' HEART !!

HATE GUYS !!

hey guys out there, when can you all be more mature?? when can you all stop playing with girls' heart?? do you know in this world how many girls have cried because of you guys??

around me, not only i cried for you guys, most of my friends are crying for you guys too..do you all think its fun to toy with girls heart??

WELL GUYS, let me tell you all some thing.....................GIRLS WILL NOT FEEL GOOD WHEN THEY ARE BEING FOOLED.....GIRLS WILL NOT FEEL GOOD WHEN THEY CRY FOR YOU GUYS.....

well i guess we are all fools, cuz we all cried for such a group of useless bums..

GIRLS ARE STRONG...............WE WILL NOT BE DEFEATED BY THOSE USELESS GUYS MAN.............

[[_in weirong house now.._]]

2006-10-13T14:44:00.000+08:00

me now in weirong de house..so long never update le..sorry wors..

recently keep going out..rarely stay at home..during the exams period, i keep going to the library with andrea, fishy, weirong and firdaus they all..they are just so fun okay..hahas..

as for now, after exams le, i keep ging out with andrea and weirong..due to some things happen, fishy never go out with us le..haiish..hope they can patch soon bah..so sian without her, feels something amiss..haiish..

recently know kinda lots f friends..sort of know 2 from westwood, know 2 jwss de, but both now consider graduate le..haiish..will miss them..

oh yeah..got one good news..I PATCH WITH WM LE..WE ARE FRIENDS AGAIN..we will never seperate again..hehes..we are friends forvever man..hehes..oh..remember something..its been some days since i last contact with him le..shall ask him out someday, when i'm free..hehes..

hao bah..shall end here..byebye..smilex.. :>

[[_screwed up_]]

2006-09-30T23:46:00.000+08:00

haiish..sianded..papa and mama wanna send me for probation..say wad they cant teach me anymore le..fcuk off..makes me so du lan..

haiish..my studies also sadden me..i flung my english paper..for sure de..haiish..i still wanna stay in express de leh..me seriously dun wanna drop to normal accad..not i look down on normal, its just that i dun wanna drop anymore..i may look as if i dun mind dropping to normal in my appearance, but i mind deep in my heart..

the L word is another problem too..HE IS JUST SIMPLY A BIG FLIRTER!! got stead still wanna jio others..fcuk off lar..never see before de also can ask for stead..den still treat me so good..BIG FCUKER!!

friends de prob dun wish say le..will never be good..standard de..get use to it le..

i just hate the L word..no matter is it LOVE, or LONELY, i just hate it..

p.s. iLi, stop saying about me and tee..we arent an item..you will harm us..can you bear the consequences if tee and his stead break becuz of this?? obviously you cant..thought andy has told you not to say anoymore?? if you treat me as your jie, pls dun harm us..pls stop..thks so much..

[[_my phone again.._]]

2006-09-22T18:09:00.000+08:00

mr gopal didnt slap me !! he rox ya~
hehes..

yesterday 2e2 and 2e3 tio spot check..haiish..there goes my phone again..

carry the phone for 2 days, kena caught by aziz and got confiscated..after i got back, sway sway after 2 weeks, tio spot check, i surrender my phone..haiish..there it goes again..

MY PHONE, BYEBYE.. :<

hahas..when mr gopal first saw i was standing outside the class due to my phone kena confiscated, he said, "i slap you ar.." hahas..the scence was like so funny lor..hahas..

and GREAT NEWS, maybe to me, not you all lar..I DIDNT CRY WHEN MY PHONE GOT CONNFISCATED..hehes..got abit feel like crying lar, like abit dui bu qi mr gopal liddat..

mr gopal treat me very good de lors..he always talk to me in a very kind tone..like papa talking to daughter liddat..sometimes will use jokes to teach me something..haiish..but still, i didnt listen to him..this time my phone kena confiscated again is serve me right lors..its of nobody to blame..

MR GOPAL, I LOVE YOU..

now i'm using emily's phone, cuz my previous SE phone is with her, so she lend me hers lors..something like exchanging phone and use liddat..haiish..not very used to it..nvm lar..serve me right for the phone to be confiscated..sadded..

btw,

3 . 4 . 5 . 6 . 7

i will not leave you all de..i will let this gang form..i will change my attitude, i will let you all fully re-accept me de..you all had my promise..all you all need to do is to tell me how should i change..

thks for treating me as your friends once again..i'm so happy man..thks so much..really really thks you all..

smilex.. :>

[[_short survey_]]

2006-09-08T12:47:00.000+08:00

jiayuan instructed me to do this=DD

7 random facts about me;
1. failure in love
2. no true friends
3. lonely girl
4. attitude
5. fat
6. ugly
7. will eat lots of things when sad

7 things that scare me;
1. great height
2. darkness
3. being hurt
4. ALL my friends leave me
5. i becoming real smoker
6. the consequences of my actions
7. no more music in this world

7 bad habits;
1. sleep like pig
2. severe mood swings
3. attitude
4. straight forward
5. act big
6. eat until dunno like wad the shit
7. pang seh ppl when i no mood

7 victims;
1. no friends left
2. no friends left
3. no friends left
4. no friends left
5. no friends left
6. no friends left
7. no friends left

=D thats all... hahaZ..

[[_went bugis ; so fun_]]

2006-09-04T21:25:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY STEPHENIE..

today i went to bugis with jolene, juliana and keng swee..woots..its fun de lor..

upon reaching there, we went to bugis junction and shop for awhile first, den we went to bugis street..

keng swee is pathetic de lor, must accompany we all go here go there, he himself cant shop much..sorry ar..

after we went to the bugis street, we went back to bugis junction and shop..

juliana came up with an idea of playing a game..we must ask phone number of opposite sex, and that person is suppose to be a stranger..dunno why, suddenly very high..

i really went to ask lor..haiish..but the first one i ask is a not so good loooking guy, middle age de..HE IS FROM THAILAND, AND HE HAS NO PHONE..haiish..wasted..

the second one i asked the look not bad sia, but DUN WAN GIVE..hmrpf..after that we go shop shop awhile..

we went to a neoprint machine, and started to zi pai inside..hahas..using our phone zi pai de wors..no money needed..hahas..we all pok le..

after that keng swee went to precious moments..he bought something..i think i a notepad or something..when we move out of the shop, he suddenly say wan go a place, and ask us go first, later den come find us..fine lor..

when he comes back, he comes back with one of the assistant in the shop de phone number lor..wad the..how he do it de..hmrpf..nvm lor..

when we are at the Edge, he got another shop assistant de number lor..wad the..me and juliana went to the shop assistant and ask her, "do you find just now that boy cute??"

and guess wad, she said yes..omg..cute sai ar..nvm lor..he win lor..after he got the number, me and juliana abit bu fu shu lor, so we keep aiming on shuai ge..hehes..

but we found out one thing..BUGIS GOT NO SHUAI GE..one or two maybe bah..haiish..

we saw one guy..he is with two of his friends..he look not bad lar, but just got abit pimple here and there only..haiish..half perfect man..juliana said, if we saw him 3 times, we will ask him for his number, and i agree to it..

and guess wad, WE SAW HIM THRICE..oh yes..so we followed them to Mos Burger..they sat down to have a drink..

cuz he is with 2 of his friends, so there 3 person..den me, jolene, juliana just nice got 3 person, can jio each one of them..hahas..in the end we only got one guy's number, keng swee help take, some more still fake de..haiish..when they leaving, i rush out take their msn..woots..hehes..dunno real or fake leh..only manage get one..

when we intend to leave, me and juliana saw 2 very handsome de guys wor..real handsome de..perfect de..me and juliana suddenly very daring wor, we run to them to take their number..hahas..ask untl very straightforward also wors..BUT!! THEY ARE JAPANESE, THEY DUN UNDERSTAND ENGISH...........wad the..another wasted one lar..

after them, we decided to give up, we decided to take mrt go back le..but we saw the fountain over there..suddenly have an urge to go play..AND..................................ME AND JULIANA REALLY RAN THROUGH THE WATER..woots..keng swee also got play, but not with us..

JOLENE NOT SPORTING DE..this one dun wan that one also dun wan..she good lor..hmrpf..

after playing awhile, when i got half of my body wet, I SAW AMBROSE SIR..hahas..wan us get number izzit?? kkz..i go get from ambrose sir..hahas..I REALLY GOT FROM HIM WORS..REAL NUMBER..happy..at least i got somebody's number..

after getting from him, me and juliana went to play the water again..ITS FUN!!

and after playing the water, my back and my hair is all wet de lor..but its really damn fun de lor.. :> dry ourselves abit and we went back le..

TODAY IS JUST SO DAMN FUN MAN..WOOTS.. :P

p.s. everybody de msn can put the turtle in your msn nick?? its to reminish irwin from kids central..the host of Croc File..he is killed by the stingray..everybody please put the turtle in your msn nick..thks so much.. the code of the turtle is (tu) ..

[[_post dedicated to jiamin_]]

2006-09-03T19:10:00.000+08:00

HE ROX!!
HE ROX!!
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HE ROX!!
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HE ROX!!
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HE SIMPLY ROX!!

p.s. jiamin, dun you think so?? hehes..

just keep continue guessing who is the HE bah..

dunno why, alot of things happen recently..got happy got sad..haiish..mostly sad de bah..

also dunno wad to post here, cuz too much things happen le..

just wanna tell HIM,
" YOU ROX and thks so much for helping.."

[[_fun yet pain_]]

2006-08-27T22:05:00.000+08:00

today suppose got one siblings wanna come my house de, in the end i dun let them come..oops..hehes..

around 12 liddat, jolene call me ask me go 619 de bb court there palay bb..since nothing to do at home, so go lor..

met jolene at our house there de bus stop, den we went there together..we live kinda near mar..reach le den we go 7-11 buy drink plus food..we havn eat nia..den we go bb court le..saw becki over there waiting le..sorry dear..

very little people over there when we reach, so we call people come down..i forgot who jolene call le, i only rmbr i call andy down..andy was fast wor..only a while den he rush down from his house le..he was living at 800 plus, den reach 600 plus within half an hour..still jio friend along..dunno him, but nvm lar..hahas..the guy sec 3 shorter den jolene..jolene so happy lor..

after a while, got kinda alot of people there le..junjie, galvin, yuyang, ryan, charis, jamie and lots more, forgot who le, was there too..but didn play with them..we got ben ben, junwei, xiwen, jinhua, tihow and some other jolene de friend there..not bad not bad..kinda lot of people..

i didnt play..i some sort like sick le..not feeling well..so i sit there see them play..andy joker sia..play until dunno like wad..fight the ball with me, dun let me hug..hmrpf..hahas..den i snatch ball with him..becki help me..the scence was funny lor..hahas..

i keep going to pm..nearby only mar..first time andy accompany me..second time, me, jolene, becki and andy go..

on our wad back, we went up to block 626..suppose whole block no people live de mar, den i dunno got people up there mar, so we went up lor..i bring them there..go up to the highest floor, hear some voice..curious who is it..its normal reaction lor, hear voice confirm go see who de mar, so i go check lor..

(i go see..)
the people there: see wad see?!
me: sorry lar..
(i angry, cuz they kinda rude..but nvm..we go down one story..they follow down..)
they people there: wad you doing just now?!
me: i hear voice so i go see lor..saw you all there so i walk away lor..since got disturb you all so i say sorry lor..
the people there: so wad you all doing here?!
me: since you all over here so we leave lor..
(lift come le..)
the people there: the lift come le, you all better go..
(i heck care..asking andy and jolene..)
me: where's becki??
jolene and andy: dunno leh..
(so i call becki..she tell me she in lift le..and we went away..suppose wanna diao them..but i dun wan create trouble, so i just walk away..when reach first floor, never saw becki, and jolene told us something..)
jolene: just now saw the guy sniff glue leh..he hide the glue behind his back, den i saw..
(me and andy shock)
jolene: wan call police anot??
andy: call lor..they at fault mar..ehhz..lend me phone..
(so i pass andy my phone..he really call 999 lor..and suppose wanna call becki, but saw her le..while andy talking to police, jolene show me something..)
jolene: see..the glue..
(pointing to a plastic bag with some dried up glue inside..after that, we went back to the bb court..)

we tell becki wad happen, cuz she wasnt there throughout, only at the later part, den i tell andy about the plstic bag with glue..

after a while, me and andy wanna go check see wad has happen le mar, so we went near there lor..saw the police car, i turn back tell andy..saw 2 of the guys who was at the block just now behind a pillar at the block behind andy..tell andy, he look back, the guys walk away..see us like bei song us liddat..knowing is we pao to de..obvious lor..we are the ones who saw them, den next moment they got problem le..hehes..

me and andy went back to the group, he call mon, ask him for help, he scared those people che dai ji..mon ask him dun do anything, just walk away..if really they come che dai ji, den call him..we didnt walk away, we stayed there..

andy suppose wanna ask mon call louis come down help, mon dun wan help..so jolene jia jia call louis come down play bb..in the end louis really come down, but he already know got something happen le, jolene told him abit..den andy told him in detail wad happen..louis feels that his trip wasted..hahas..

hmms..after that nothing much happen le lar..louis went home, we went to andy house there de bb court..i didnt play as usual, i got lots of blister on my leg..plus not feeling well..so i sat there help them look after things, while they playing..

a friend call me chat, in the end i hung up the phone..du lan him lar..

finally i cannot ta han le..feels really terrible, but i didnt let them know..i quietly pack up those valuable and bring with me to the nearby mama shop buy panadol..jolene they all had no idea where i going, and she is worried about the things, so she and andy went to the things and look after it until i come back..sorry jolene and andy..ma fan you all..sorry sorry..

i eat le panadol, rest awhile..andy go play soccer with his friends, me accmpany jolene learn bicycle..she ride bicycle also alot of things happen..she's another joker lor..hahas..no matter how hard andy teach, she just wont seem to learn..hahas..

acompany her learn..andy teach till bek cei lor..he sweating like hell..hahas..ke lian him..at around 7 plus liddat, he ask his brother go home first, den he give jolene a ride home, i walk slowly behind..they reach a place, den stop and wait for me..abit dui bu qi them leh..sorry wor..

finally reach the playground under jolene block le..play there for awhile..i ate 3 panadol..the first one is because i really not feeling well, the other 2 is i'm do foolish thing..i tell them, hide from them abit sorry for them liddat, cuz they ask me not to eat le..

andy know i eat 3, snatch the panadol from me, den eat one for nothing..he claims that he headache, but obviously he is not lor..they know i do foolish thing, den wanna stop me from doing, so accompany me do..suppose he wanna throw away all my panadol de, den i "fight" with him..

haiish..but i'm still gonna find the panadol..nobody gonna stop me..i wanna make myself sick..i dun wanna go school..i'm afraid of facing them..i cant take the coldness they are giving..i'm scared i will cry again..haiish..

[[_i dunno wad to do_]]

2006-08-27T10:22:00.000+08:00

i'm sorry for the stupid attitude i gave..i'm willing to change..seriously..i'm willing to change..

but can you all tell me i must change to like wad anot?? i really dunno..

i admit i may be giving attitude sometimes..i admit i may be the sot one, suddenly shout at you all when its not your fault..but i didnt backstab anyone of you..i swear i didnt backstab..i didnt backstab for sure..

dun understand why you all say i backstab where i didnt lor..

tell me how can i change..pls tell me..friends is more important to me den love..i cant be happy without friends..

can we be like this again??

[[_du lan plus bek cei lar.._]]

2006-08-22T20:36:00.000+08:00

today in class something happen again..some conflict happen due to some misunderstanding..haiish..dun wanna take about it le..

2e2 is gonna break into pieces le..can this not happen?? can we have a nice talk over it??

act like all me, serina and xinyu de fault lar..we admit we also got mistakes here and there, but not all our fault mar..think lar..wad is your attitude towards us?? FRIENDS suddenly give us attitude, we happy ar?! den act like all our fault lor..

all the blame on us, still say wad we blame everything on you all..this time dunno is who act ke lian lor..the person who tag my blog still say i act ke lian..go 2e2 see who is really the ones who act ke lian..surely you will say is not me anymore if you really is the neutral one, not sidinig anyone..

i just now tried say sorry to one of the person over msn..solve some of the misunderstaning le, but still dun wanna accept my apology..

pls lar..i say sorry very good liao lor..you think you very big ar?!

actually the prob got none of your business too lor..we never say anything about you lor..none of your problem still wanna join in kpo..say xinyu join in kpo, den you leh..you stand no position in this conflict..none of the matter relates to you lor..

you are not that important..you dun deserve our time quarrelling over you lor..you are just a welfare head..consider a no position comittee..you are just being biased by kalai, thats all nia..you are nothing..

i dun care who is reading my blog now lor..eventhough if its jiamin or carisse i also dun care..i didnt say behind your back le lor..i say it openly in my blog..i hate you can!! ANG XIAN YING, I HATE YOU..YOU ONLY KNOW HOW TO ACT BIG, YOU ARE NOTHING !!

i dun care how 2e2 will be like after this matter le..i dun give it a damn man..as long as maomao, fishy, sigina are still together can le..hehes..

[[_i hate this kind of life_]]

2006-08-17T21:10:00.000+08:00

i just hate being left out alone lor..nobody likes to be left out alone..i'm no exceptional..but why i just have to left out alone?! why am i always the one being left out?! can i dun be the one anymore?! i hate this kind of feeling lor..alone you all think fun ar?! its of no fun..

why some people can have lots of friends?! why cant i even have a true friend?!

everybody tell me wad, "i will be there for you de, got anything can come and find me.."act like i really can go and find you all liddat..when i'm sad, when i'm down, where are you all?! you all are nowhere to be found..and i'm being left out alone in the sadness..i just simply hate it lor..

i only have a simple wish..to have a true friend and being loved..its just so simple..but i just cant get it..even such an easy thing i also cant get, how can i get such a difficult thing like happiness?!

always ask me smile, always ask me cheer up..oh please, when someone is really down, how can they cheer up?! i may be the laughing one, i may be the joking one..why?! i dun wanna anybody to be as sad as me..i wanna the people around me to be happy..

but i didnt get anything in return..yes..i did get something in return..more and more people are leaving me..

they leave me nvm..nobody is coming in !! thats the problem..nobody is coming in !! can somebody just come in?! come in and comfort me and go..i will be happy le..

but the matter now is, nobody even walk pass..nobody..

the people who hates me and has tagged my blog will be thinking that i'm acting ke lian now maybe..i'm not acting ke lian, i'm really friendless liao lor..i wouldnt lie to you for this kind of things..you all should know who am i..look around me..who is the one that i'm really close to?! nobody lor..no one okay..i really dun wish to continue this tagging of blog thing le lor..come and look for me if you all are really unhappy with me..lets have a chat can?! believe that there is lots of misunderstanding in between us lor..

you people just cant see my good..didnt i express it well enough?! my good will always be the bad thing in the end..why is this so?! anyone just tell me..i really wish to know..

p.s. jiamin, i cried is because i feel that i'm the extra lightbulb in between you and geraldine..sorry..i shouldnt join you all at first..i should have went home..i'm really really very sorry..i will go home next time de..i wont pester you de..i promise..have fun with your friends bah..

[[_dun ever dare to flare me up_]]

2006-08-15T00:30:00.000+08:00

dunno who are those idiots who spam my blog with their rubbish lor..

do i know "you all" ??

or maybe i really do, but you all just hate me too much le, so you all wanna "play a trick" on me..scolding me in my blog..funny ar?? you all just hit my red star le lor..i'm kinda of flaring now lor..i must find out who is those idiots who pollute my blog man..

you all force me to do this..if i ever find out who is behind this, i make sure i wont be nice to you all de lor..and you can be very sure, i will go find out who are those fking idiots de lor..

i mean wad i say..

dun think of saying sorry, apologise or wadsoeva now..you are just making things easier for me, i can find out who are you easier..i warn you all before dun be so accurate and hit my red star le, and you all just seems to be dumb too..hit my red star, times and times again..

i wont forgive..unless you really did something that i should really forget about this matter..which is most probably nothing you can do..

can forget about complaining to your papa or mama that somebody is gonna hamtam you..i hate papa boy/girl or mama boy/girl..if you dare to spam my blog, den you should be mentally prepare le..you should know i'm which kind of person le..

i will never forget this matter de..i will never forget my words de..if i say i'm gonna find you all out, means i'm gonna find you all out..

i agree wad to emptiness say, you all scare till even your real name also dun dare to put..dare to light up my fire, dun dare to admit who are you..omg..has never seen such a coward before lor..its just so hillarious man..hahas..

only idiot will put fake name go round spaming others blog..if you really wanna spam people's blog put real name lar..like me..wad's there to be afraid of?? since you spam their blog is to show your unhappiness with them, den show your identity..tell them openly, "i hate you"..dun be such a coward man..

i despise coward..i despise those people with no guts..the earth have this kind of people living around its such a pollution man..

[[_has been out with them for 2 days le_]]

2006-08-13T18:49:00.000+08:00

today went out with them again..today we went to the library chiong hmk..i only did some xi zi..and help them solve some of their problems in their hmk..cuz i'm the biggest over there mar..one sec 1 and one pri 6 only mar..hehes..

they finish their hmk faster, cuz they got lesser hmk mar..i tried to rush abit..cnt..really too much le, so i stop doing and went off with them..dun wan them wait for me for too long..

after that we went to pioneer mall..needa help mama find brick game..she wan..found le, den went to buy some food..i bought candy floss, den emily bought a chicken wing..the other idiotic person bought nothing..say wad dun wan eat..i change my face straight away lor..change to a black black face..

i dislike people who dun eat de lor..and the reason for them not eating is extreme lame de lor..like wad, no appetite or i very fat le, i wan slim down, where they are already very slim..omg..you tell me no money or wadsoeva is alright..cuz no money mar, cant expct to ask the person go steal money and eat mar..but tell me wan slim down..omg..

after me giving the black face for kinda a long time, they finally go koufu and eat something le..but face still quite black..opps..dunno why..maybe still angry with him bah..

after they finish their food, emily went to meet her friend take something, den i went to playground with the other one..we played some lame things over there..

the lamer keep taking my things den put high high, so i cannot take, cuz i afraid of height mar..at first is take my slipper, den finally got back my slipper le, that lamer took my pencil case away and run..i lazy chase, so i just slowly walk behind while i sms with serina..that lamer suddenly is nowhere to be found lor, so i called him..i please him, she still dun wan tell me..finally saw him, he run away again..wahhh..nvm, go find him again, den saw him with emily and emily friend..

go up to them, he run away again..den we was like playing merry-go-round by the roadside lor..omg..but fun lar..in the end, emily help me got back my pencil case..hehes..she is on my side ya~

after i got back my pencil case, we all parted..i went back home with serina pei wo sms..hehes..thks thks baobeiix..and when i reach home, slack around for awhile den i online le..

p.s. stupid lamer..take away my pencil case still wan me owe you somtthing..knnbcbb lar..hehes..jkjk nia..i promise if you return me i owe you something de mar..i wont break my promise de..smilex.. :>

[[_mood strange strange de_]]

2006-08-13T00:08:00.000+08:00

came back from home about 1 hour ago..went to art park together with some friends..i came back after 10pm, and papa was at home le..he didnt call me and rush me home, didnt scold me when i reach home too..so good lor..hope everytime was liddat..

kkz, back to the point..i went to art park..called out by my friends..i didnt know that there is something going on at art park..actually the event also not related to me de..consider related bah, its national day de celebration..but i go there only walk here walk there..also never get involve in the things there..

went to almost all the play ground there..i mean at art park only..only went there for kinda a short period of time only, i think for about 2 hours only..i was late for the meet..suppose meet at 7 de..den i "got something on", so i drag to 8 den i go meet them..hehes..

although i did nothing much there, but its still quite fun lar..i mean the chats we had..sorted some things out, but got new problems coming in..haiish..sianded..

shant continue on..wo hen luan..haiish..end here.. :>

[[_i sad sad_]]

2006-08-10T15:49:00.000+08:00

i love serina . x) / she loves me too . i loves her hair . she hates it . xD

p.s. REALLY type by serina de.. (: . chezzey . =)

now at serina house..my house de comp cannot get into internet explorer..dunnno why..sianded..

very sad recently..was sick the past few days..sobx sobx..hen xin ku..finally feel better le, during school ndp parade that day, sad again..not very big problem, so shall not talk about it..

yesterday, national day..i sad again, i even cried out lor..for just a very small and stupid thing..msn with alvin sir, he told me something, and i got sad and cried the very next moment he told me..

not his fault, he didnt make me cry, just was thinking about something..why some people can get their happiness and why some people just cant..

today went to meet serina at her house, den she say wanna go cut hair, so i didnt go up to her house, and waited at her house void deck, and i accompanied her had her hair cut..kinda short, but nice, she say not nice..hmrpf..

hao xiang jian ta..hao xiang ta..dan wo tao yan ta..ta rang wo ku le yi ci you yi ci..wo tao yan ta.. (dun understand wad are those words nvm..)

end here..wish alvin sir and her happy..smilex.. :>

[[_at siok hui's house_]]

2006-08-03T18:22:00.000+08:00

in siok hui's house now..dun wanna go home yet, that "home" so sian de lor..but we are leaving soon le..haiish..

today "brother" go out with daughter and xian ying..never ask me along..so sad lor..daughter suppose ask me tag along de..but i never tag along..so thick skin to tag along lor..act like i cannot live without him liddat..

fk lor..i can live on my own life without anybody's influence..i live my own way man..

MALE SUX TO THE CORE !! (it include everybody around me..............)

[[_from bad to worst_]]

2006-07-27T21:50:00.000+08:00

my relationship with mama is getting from bad to wworst le..just had a fight with her..and as she is an old woman le mar, so she dun have much strength to hit me back, so she just use soemthing hard to throw at me..causing my ear to be bleeding now..

as usual, her words is just damn awful de lor..everything that comes out from her mouth is all just nasty words..and for that, i cant tolerate her..and started quaralling with her times and times again..

why cant i have a perfect family with my parents know wad i'm thinking ne?? why cant i have a parents that can let me have the sense of security??

at the very moment they lost the prefect-ness in this house, they lost me too..

i'm starting to thinks that this is no longer my house..it is only a place that i must report to everyday..

[[_I HATE FLIRTERS !!_]]

2006-07-25T17:25:00.000+08:00

wahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.......

FLIRTERS SUCKS...........................................

SADDDDDDDDDDD......................................

why must boys be so flirts ne?? how bold is he to ask me for a girl's contact mumber..just hate him being so flirt lor..how can i tolerate my did to be so flirt..impossible de lor..

i just hate guys who flirt !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

dun ever let me see any guys flirt around again ar..sure shout straight in their ears, or i will give them a tight slap de lor..

hatez 2 timer too..........................................................

guys better watch out ar............................

[[_i gonna cry le.._]]

2006-07-24T20:30:00.000+08:00

yesterday was evac workshop (bronze) accreditation..i took my theory paper on the day before, and i pass..yesterday was practical and radio com..i spam my practical..my radio com was alright, just stammer abit..too nervous le, cuz radio com is the last item tested..

just wad, i failed..michelle ma'am told me that i'm border line fail..i got 70 plus, ask me dun be so sad le..i almost cried out lor, but i hold back, but you sure can see a damn sad de face on me de lor..

geraldine and athirah pass their evac silver..me?? i fail..

kenny say that its possible for him to help me pull up to the passing mark, but overall, the fact is i still fail ar..so wad if he help me pass, but the initial fact is I FAIL................................

and due to the waiting of the stupid results, i didnt get to meet my friend..its been so long since i went out with him le lor..den now finally got a chance le, but the stupid results..haiish..

was so sad yesterday..cry le and stop, cry le and stop..especially the evac results..cant stop thinking that i failed the accreditation..cant stop being sad..haiish..

its fated for me to be sad for my life..haiish..

[[_today de evac workshop_]]

2006-07-23T00:09:00.000+08:00

went for the evac workshop again..today nothing much happen bah..just that there is not so much of practical only..most of it is theory..but we did our theory in an air-conditioned room wor..hahas..so shuang lor..

we did some sort of like mass evacuation..that means we have a senario, den there will be people acting as casualty and we have to evac them out of the building which is going to collasped..quite tired, cuz the casualty we evac is some sort of like kinda a heavy weoght one..hahas..no offence..

after that we got theory test..part of the accreaditation le..we only did theory today, the practical part will be tmr..sianx..still must go for the course tmr, cannot go out..i wanna go out leh..he ask me out le leh..haiish..

btw, back to the point..we took the theory test today, and guess wad, i pass..hahas..i did the paper with my head dropping le..i was too tired le..hahas..i still can pass the paper with me half waken..hahas..btw, the paper was kinda easy, so its quite easy to pass easily.. (oops..abit too arrogant le..siad in a way as if i'm very clever liddat..sorry ar..i'm not a clever person..)

after the course has ended, i wiated outside the ampsite for geraldine and athirah who are attending the evac silver and we went back to boon lay first..actually athirah left first, cuz she have to rush home..

and at boon lay, i met shi hui, so after i parted with geraldine, i went home together with shi hui..

and after i parted with shihui, i went to meet papa..after waiting for papa to finish his drink, we went back home together..i was been sent home all the way by different people..sounds so "da pai"..hahas..

dun dare to sms in front of papa..he keep scolding me for the bombing of my bill..espeacially my sms part..haiish..if cannot sms in front of papa how?? papa most of the time is around me..haiish..

[[_so sad..my hair................._]]

2006-07-20T19:40:00.000+08:00

today kena cuaght by joe so after the morning assenbly while we are on our way back to class, den he wanna me go find him during recess time....suppose to be socks only de, how would i know that when i look for him during recess time, he spotted my dyed hair and called gopal to see my coloured hair too..

wahhhhh..i dye for so long liao, never catch, today den he catch..he cock eye ar..still ask gopal call mama, tell her about my hair colour..but lucky mama know i dye, and let me dye, if not i sure die liao..

today reach home, mama was napping..dun wanna disturb her..when she wake up le, she ask me go take the dye to her and she help me dye back..dun waste money go saloon le..indeed lor..waste money just because of joe so some stupid words..

i look at the dye mama buy..wahhhh..dark natural brown..brown somemore..dunno wad mama is thinking..look at the package..hmmm..the colour seems abit dark wor..nvm lar..so i let mama help me dye..

after i wash the dye away..still got abit red red de hair. den got some brown brown also de..hmmm..the colour looks abit not nice..abbit colour here and there..not even de..but nvm lar..style mar..hahas..

after i finish di-siaoing my hair, i went online for this blog last preparation work le..has been working on this skin quite some time le..suppose wanna put a main picture to it de..i lazy, so i just leave it so plain lor..simple is nice mar..i like simple things..hahas..hope you all like it lor..hahas..

p.s. my hp bill bomd until dunno like wad ar..initial bill, 20 plus bucks only..den previous month de bill 50 plus bucks lor..used 1420 plus of sms..opps..i die liao..papa just solded me for that..haiish..each month is getting worser lor..haiish..

[[_gastric pain ar !!!!!!_]]

2006-07-17T20:29:00.000+08:00

today suppose dun wanna go to school de, cuz gastric pain..den at the very last minute papa force me to go..haiish..

late le, so must take cab there, no choice..wanna claim from papa, since is he wanna me go de mar, den he say dun wanna let me claim..wahhhhhhhh..den i use my own money..reaching 10 bucks le leh..damn expensive de lor..

den reach school gate, saw alot of people also late, so i just join in the line and sit..kena detain outside the school..haiish..nvm..not the first time le..

den waited for kinda a long time, den we are brought into the school for our punishment..standard one..run around the parade square..haiish..gastric pain i still run..act strong mar..

after running for dunno how many rounds..finally can go back le..but gastric damn pain de..haiish..i didnt show it out much..i just press onto my gastric only..didnt express out the pain look..

but dunno how mr wan knows it..he "pull" me to sick bay instead of asking me go back to class..

so i went to the sick bay out of no choice..i dunno how long i stayed there..but the time i left sick bay was around 0905 liddat..

wahhhhhhhhh..i missed about 2 and a half lesson le leh..my knowledge....................my math................haiish..

after school, went to meet jiamin..den me, geraldine and jiamin went to jp to have our lunch..we only ate chee cheong fun and a bowl of dessert..

after that we went ntuc to buy some snacks before we procced to library..jiamin wanted to borrow and return books..so we accompanied her along..met peipei, steph and veron there..peipei hit me until very hard wor..she so bad lor..so pain..

after library, we went back home in our ways..geraldine walked home, me and jiamin went to board bus 179..

waited for the late night to arrive cuz jiamin has promised me to call me..i'm waiting for her call............and my gastric is still pain..haiish..was wondering if i should g schooling tmr anot..haiish..

blog blog.

[[___I'VE MOVED TO XANGA!___]]

[[___MAMA! I LOVE YOU! ___]]

[[___siao liao___]]

[[___kbox wit RAINjie___]]

[[___ILU___]]

[[___THEY ARE ALL MINE! except florence is serina's___]]

[[___my life is so full of drama?___]]

[[___5th day wit my siaoeh le... =)___]]

[[___i gonna live my own way out___]]

[[___why dun they sometimes put themselves in others shoes & think___]]

[[___if we are still tgt, it will be 5 more days to our one month___]]

[[___i'm just gonna live my own way out___]]

[[___I'M GONNA PLAY FOR ALL I WAN___]]

[[___i really need you, but i guess its impossible for you to come back___]]

[[___everything is going down slope for me___]]

[[___jec___]]

[[___i'm a wheat grass & green tea gal___]]

& yes…I’m crying…I’m still the cry baby`~

[[___are things still the same? No…___]]

[[___I’m partly at fault for causing things changed…sorry…___]]

[[___has lost my ez link card___]]

[[___& i miss you alot alot...___]]

[[___i love rainy days?___]]

[[___is she the one?___]]

[[___she's the one bah?___]]

[[___if the advices is a good one, it brings you no harm...___]]

[[___frens are forever___]]

[[___5th post for you___]]

[[___my boyboy =)___]]

[[___4th post for the sake of her___]]

[[___3rd day you are inside___]]

[[___life changes___]]

[[___last day___]]

[[___si bei lost___]]

[[___24072007]]

[[___i give up le___]]

[[___lost___]]

[[___i really wan all the best for you___]]

[[___i will wait for you to come de___]]

[[___i just wish you all the best...I LOVE YOU~___]]

[[___new frens!___]]

[[___sentosa day___]]

[[___tmd suey___]]

[[___cute guy or siao peh___]]

[[___gonna die soon___]]

[[___ARGH~___]]

[[___haiish...probation...___]]

[[___The Wreckers - Cigarettes___]]

[[___mama change le___]]

[[___200 pounds beauty very nice!___]]

[[___back from camp___]]

[[___once again, i'm blank___]]

[[___would you be there?___]]

[[___redwan ali - would you be there___]]

[[___start everything anew?___]]

[[___last chapter___]]

[[___blank blank blank___]]

[[___last words___]]

[[___i just love you___]]

[[___ITS HER!___]]

[[___being siao can forget oneself?___]]

[[___sad sad sad___]]

[[___I DUN GIVE IT A DAMN, I ONLY LOVE MY GF NOW___]]

[[___sad si wo___]]

[[___at chong de hse___]]

[[___everything is over___]]

[[___so sad___]]

[[___all good things come to an end___]]

[[___i cant forget you all..i miss you all___]]

[[___you left me___]]

[[___FDC ` 2007___]]

[[___i've found him___]]

[[___HATE LOVE___]]

[[___28/10/2006___]]

[[___GUYS SUX___]]

[[___in weirong house now..___]]

[[___screwed up___]]

[[___my phone again..___]]

[[___short survey___]]

[[_I'VE MOVED TO XANGA!_]]

[[_MAMA! I LOVE YOU! _]]

[[_siao liao_]]

[[_kbox wit RAINjie_]]

[[_ILU_]]

[[_THEY ARE ALL MINE! except florence is serina's_]]

[[_my life is so full of drama?_]]

[[_5th day wit my siaoeh le... =)_]]

[[_i gonna live my own way out_]]

[[_why dun they sometimes put themselves in others shoes & think_]]

[[_if we are still tgt, it will be 5 more days to our one month_]]

[[_i'm just gonna live my own way out_]]

[[_I'M GONNA PLAY FOR ALL I WAN_]]

[[_i really need you, but i guess its impossible for you to come back_]]

[[_everything is going down slope for me_]]

[[_jec_]]

[[_i'm a wheat grass & green tea gal_]]

[[_are things still the same? No…_]]

[[_I’m partly at fault for causing things changed…sorry…_]]

[[_has lost my ez link card_]]

[[_& i miss you alot alot..._]]

[[_i love rainy days?_]]

[[_is she the one?_]]

[[_she's the one bah?_]]

[[_if the advices is a good one, it brings you no harm..._]]

[[_frens are forever_]]

[[_5th post for you_]]

[[_my boyboy =)_]]

[[_4th post for the sake of her_]]

[[_3rd day you are inside_]]

[[_life changes_]]

[[_last day_]]

[[_si bei lost_]]

[[_i give up le_]]

[[_lost_]]

[[_i really wan all the best for you_]]

[[_i will wait for you to come de_]]

[[_i just wish you all the best...I LOVE YOU~_]]

[[_new frens!_]]

[[_sentosa day_]]

[[_tmd suey_]]

[[_cute guy or siao peh_]]

[[_gonna die soon_]]

[[_ARGH~_]]

[[_haiish...probation..._]]

[[_The Wreckers - Cigarettes_]]

[[_mama change le_]]

[[_200 pounds beauty very nice!_]]

[[_back from camp_]]

[[_once again, i'm blank_]]

[[_would you be there?_]]

[[_redwan ali - would you be there_]]

[[_start everything anew?_]]

[[_last chapter_]]

[[_blank blank blank_]]

[[_last words_]]

[[_i just love you_]]

[[_ITS HER!_]]

[[_being siao can forget oneself?_]]

[[_sad sad sad_]]

[[_I DUN GIVE IT A DAMN, I ONLY LOVE MY GF NOW_]]

[[_sad si wo_]]

[[_at chong de hse_]]

[[_everything is over_]]

[[_so sad_]]

[[_all good things come to an end_]]

[[_i cant forget you all..i miss you all_]]

[[_you left me_]]

[[_FDC ` 2007_]]

[[_i've found him_]]

[[_HATE LOVE_]]

[[_28/10/2006_]]

[[_GUYS SUX_]]

[[_in weirong house now.._]]

[[_screwed up_]]

[[_my phone again.._]]

[[_short survey_]]

[[_went bugis ; so fun_]]

[[_post dedicated to jiamin_]]

[[_fun yet pain_]]